Mak

So I've been getting a lot of questions recently asking will I ever make an effort on making things right with a girl named Camryn? Me personally and mentally I would have to say no. For me to say a thing or two about her or to even speak of her is really hard for me to an extent where I can't really focus on anything. So I don't really think now or anytime soon will be a really relevant time to see or talk to her in person. So I'm probably not even going to bother with me making any contact with her or anything relating to her.  I'm just going to do what I've been doing since freshman year of high school and letting shit go and letting people live their life without me in it. It's not that Camryn is a distraction, unlike some people who think she's the main reason as to why I went into rehab but that's not true what's so ever neither is it close. I went into rehab for suicidal thought and depressions way before I ever met Camryn. Now you can sto...

Why the hell do people want to know if that African American is my friend or not and if they need to stop hanging out with me just because I don't know what's got people talking and asking me who my friends are at school cause quite frankly I don't really know. It's freaking high school people come in go at that place and what's it matter to you anyway if I have African American friends or Caucasians friends? We're all the same. I'm so tired of everyone judging people based on their color, looks, and just the little things people do. Just leave people the fuck alone and stop trying to make them feel insecure about themselves. I'm getting to the point where I don't have time for judgmental people and I just wanna knock some god damn sense into their small pathetic little brains that they have. Yeah, I'm Asian and that has what to do with anything exactly? Cause last time I checked, I could hang out with whoever I chose to hang out and make new fri...

Why do people need to care so much about what others think of them when they can just go out and do their own thing. We are so worried about what others think of us that we lose sight in reality. Like does it even matter what people think of you? They don't live your life, they don't wear the same shoes you do and they sure as hell don't walk the same path as you. So why the fuck do you guys even care so much about all those irrelevant people around you for? It's so stupid. Just let shit be. Go live your life and enjoy that shit without worrying about what others are thinking of or saying about you. You have to be in one of those moods where you just don't give a fuck about anything or anyone. I'm always in that mood and it feels so fucking amazing. I don't have any kind of stress in my life and I don't have irrelevant people talking to me. The I don't give a fuck attitude can do so much for you that it's priceless. When I'm in that mood I fe...

I honestly don't know what's scarier the fact that we're so concerned about what people think of us or the fact that we let society control us and our beliefs. Every day we're constantly being judged, overlooked, and just being put down over the most obscure shit in the world. Why do people still think it's necessary to put others down and make them feel like they're unwanted in society for? It's not the way to live a life. Stop being such a fucking hypocrite and let people enjoy their lives without you having to be a dick all the time. It's so irrelevant. People should feel comfortable with themselves and not have to feel like an outsider every second of their life. It gets annoying and depressing after a while. Trust me I would know. People would always make me feel so insecure and just hate on me for no given reason. I didn't know what I was doing with myself to make everyone hate me so much until I just said fuck it and did my own shit and I didn...

I hardly ever talk to anyone at my school so I don't understand why I'm hated by so many people for. If you're mad at me because I don't talk to you then that's your problem, not mine. I'm not the type just start a random conversation with people who have negative vibes. So you either change your vibe situation or stay the fuck away from me. There's no in between with me. I can't have people around me with negative vibes because that shit just puts me over the edge. I also don't talk to a lot of people because all they wanna know is about my past and why I am the way am. It's like asking water why is it wet. Like bitch does it matter? My past is my past. I know I've made a whole bunch of mistakes in my lifetime but damn at least I've learned from it so I could make myself a better person. But all you seem to see is someone who's a bad person with a badass attitude whenever you look at me or even hear about me. When the rest of the few...

 I only see myself as an alien sometimes because I don't really have a category to fit in. I'm either too bad for this or too good for that and I'm just so sick of trying to fit into places where I don't belong. So I'm just like fuck being in categories I'm just gonna do my own shit and not even worry about trying to fit into some lame ass category with people who don't even know me or understand me.I'm not the type to be wasting my time when I have other important things in life to than to figure out where I belong and who to be when I know who I am already. I'm just an 18-year-old dude who doesn't really give a fuck about people that are irrelevant to my life and someone who just doesn't take any bullshit from anyone. I just have a bad attitude towards shit that I don't like and I'm sure as hell not going to sugar coat that shit and act as if I like the shit that goes on around me. If I don't like someone or something I stay as ...