Mak

Ugh, can my days in school get any worse? So I'm in lunch again and some kid wanted to sit where I was sitting and I told his ass several times that my friends were sitting there and he called me a cunt and a bitch and I got really heated at first but I let it slide. A few minutes later my friends come over which happen to be girls. I let them in the booth and sit and we start talking and then this white boy comes at me again and walks the fuck away. I let it slide again cause I didn't find him or the shit he said was important. Now knowing that I'm a senior in high school and fighting someone for calling you a name isn't really worth it. That's why I let it go. Another few minutes go by and his friend Matthew said I was a bitch for not fighting him in the bathroom and this is where shit escalated. First of all: This kid never mentioned anything about me meeting him the bathroom to go fight. Second of all: Who fights in the bathroom? That's so 2008. Be a man and...

Why are people calling me crazy and putting me out of place? I know I'm crazy. It's part of my personality. I'm not hiding it, unlike some people who claim there's nothing wrong with them. I'm not comfortable being something I'm not and I definitely don't like being forced into being something I'm not just to look and be seen as a normal person. I was born differently and if people can't accept that then they can just go on somewhere that doesn't involve looking at me then. It's not that hard to not see or talk to someone. I do it all the time. It mostly involves you just ignoring someone or something and pretending as if they don't exist. Shit that's how I deal with most of you people that call me crazy and put me into some category that "you think I fit in". I'm not sorry that I think differently and do shit that seems to be out of place but it's the only way I feel comfortable in doing things. Not everyone you mee...

I really couldn't care if a girl cheats on me cause I'd probably cheat on her. It's part of society anyway. People tend to cheat on one another and get over it. People act as if they matter to one another when in fact the only thing that matters to them about that person is what they have. It's never about the loyalty or trust it's all about an object that they wanna claim and once people claim it you're dead to them. They don't want anything to do with you. People are worse than animals. We bite off of things that we know we can't chew. We don't care about others we just exist in one planet and do the same shit over and over again. Our own kind hates on us for doing the only thing we know which is survival and trying to fit in. But what's the point of doing any of that when we're just going to be blamed and beaten up for doing just that? If I had the option to either live or be killed I would have chosen to be killed. This world we live in i...

Why do people still need to think it's relevant for them to tell me what to do? Last time I checked I was legally responsible for my own self. So why are people still acting as if I have to listen to them for? This shit telling me how to do everything and when to do it is so stupid. Just let me worry about my own self and my own shit and you can worry about yourself and whatever shit you've got going on. I'm not taking orders from somebody I don't fucking know. Shit for all we know you're going to kill me or kidnap me. You can boss around and act like you're the man of shit to your own workers but I'm not the type to follow every guideline in the book so fuck off telling me when to do shit. That goes for school also. If I'm going to be wasting 8 fucking hours 5 days a week you better know damn well I'm going to be on my phone checking if payments are being made and delivered. So these teachers need to go take a chill pill or go do something that does...

 I don't know why but I honestly can't wait to be on my own next year. I know most kids that just graduated high school don't want to leave their home and their parents but I'm not like a normal teenager as my so what of mother would say. Always putting me down and shit all because my biological mother drank some alcohol. That's all she ever brings up just to upset me and make me want to hate her and I think she likes it when I say cruel things to her. It's her only excuse she has just so she can have some kind of argument with me. I'm so sick and tired of hearing the same shit over and over from someone who doesn't even know me biologically. She's just some person who found me on the internet, flew overseas, went to the adoption agency and picked me up at the orphanage. Yuppie congrats you got a child that you found on the internet and if I'm not mistaken I believe that's illegal so basically, she had no real legal reason on doing what she d...