Blog Post 21

Lately, I've been thinking about someone I know I treated poorly for no reason. But I just want her to know that I was stupid and It was very selfish of me to do the things I did back in 2013. I know there's no way in hell to change back time but if there was I'd go back to the first day she and I had met and just leave it at a "Hello" & Goodbye" then none of this shit would have had happened.

People wouldn't be all up in my face telling me shit that I know I can't undo and I wouldn't have to hear them telling me how much of an ass hole I am when I already know. I also wouldn't have gotten into a fight for sticking up for her. Yeah I got punched a few times and I came out with a bruised rib but it was worth it. I'm not going to stand there and watch somebody talk shit about somebody who meant a lot to me.

The problem was I already knew she didn't care for me or wanted to do anything with me but I didn't really care about that. I don't really know what I wanted from this girl I just knew that I wasn't going to have some dude talk shit about her. I guess you could say I was protecting her from this dude or whatever but I don't even think she knew this guy but he sure seemed to know a lot about me somehow.

I haven't seen this dude since the fight and I hope I never have to because I'm not trying to go to prison for beating a man to death. I'm still kind of young and trying to learn more about myself and what I'm supposed to do with my life. But I can't-do that with everybody on my case about a person who I haven't talked to in years but seen a few times when I was in town. But that was ages ago.

There's really nothing between me and this girl you guys keep bringing up. All I have to say to you guys is that I hope this girl you keep mentioning is doing well and she has moved on and stopped thinking about how much of an asshole I was to her. I am going to be 19 in 49 days and I believe this whole subject on this one girl is overdue anyway. You guys have been asking me about her since the first day of summer of 2013 and that's too damn long to keep asking me about the same shit over and over again don't you think.