Blog Post 23

I hate falling for someone. It feels so weird for me because I don't really know I'm what feeling or what to even do with myself half the times. I would always be asking myself "hey did I just fuck up everything with you or am I doing it right?" Because I've never actually truly fallen in love with someone except that girl all of you know of if you follow me on twitter. I'm not going to say her name or go into too many details about her but just know I was a real fuck head back in the eighth grade. Since then I haven't really been doing much with the whole dating scene or even hooked up with anyone just for the hell of it. Well, let me take that back. I did hook up with this one girl a couple of months back but it was just one of those wild ass nights where I didn't really think too much of it and I don't see me opening up that box anytime soon.

I don't really give a damn about other people being in a relationship so for those that keep asking me does it bother me it doesn't so stop asking me that question. I'm not ready to date anyone yet cause I'm only 18 and still trying to figure myself out and I really don't want to be in one at this point. I just wanna do me and my thing only. I don't wanna worry about someone when I wake up and go to sleep just to make sure they're okay. I've never been that type of guy. Now unless you're like someone I want to really give a fuck about then fuck yeah I'm going to make sure you're safe and whatever. But until I find that one girl I'm not doing anything like that.