Blog Post 51

People keep texting me about C.T and wondering if I’m ever gonna be friends or have anything to do with her in the future and my only reply to those people is “No Comment”.

People don’t understand/realize what I did to her, in my opinion, was stupid, wrong and something that nobody should do to another human being. I was basically harassing her on social media when I was younger and I didn’t even know it at the time until I talked to my therapist about her and they had said I was harassing her on social media and I felt so horrible for the past 3 years of my life. That’s why I never really liked talking about her nor wanted anything to do with her until I forgot about her existence and moved on with my life and was ready to talk about my poor judgments and my mistakes.

People think it’s all fun and games or whatever. But to me, it was all serious business and nothing to really joke about. People think that what I did to her was okay because I was younger and didn’t know any better and that she should just get over it. But no it’s not something you can just say fuck it and go on with your life as if nothing ever happened. It’s like murdering someone and thinking that you aren’t going to get caught when in the meantime people are investigating the murder that you just committed and putting the pieces together to find out that it was you who did it. Do you understand what I mean?

People need stop thinking that everything is going to be okay and a happy ever ending with me and C. Because the way I see it with her is that I’m gonna see her one day in the future and she’s gonna just tell me she hates me for everything I’ve done and I’m just going to say okay and walk off. It’s basic shit between us two so people really need to chill out texting me saying I need to do this and that if I ever see her and if she talks shit just tell her to shut up.

First of all me telling C. to shut up is not even worth my time or breath and I would never tell someone I cared for to just shut up because I’m not like that. I’d rather just tell her to leave me alone and go our separate ways like we are now and just live life without worrying about how each of us is doing or what we’re doing.

So yeah that’s all I have left to say about this topic. Now can you please stop texting me about C. and start texting me about other stuff besides this subject. Cause I’m so done with this subject.