Blog Post 66

Can people stop thinking I live this normal ass life you call living? Because to me I honestly don’t feel like I’m living. I feel depressed every morning and when I go to sleep. I take these dumb ass medications to help me with my attitude and my behavior. I don’t like people. I have a few friends because I hate having to put my trust in others. I barely talk with my family members unless someone tells me to tell them how I’m doing. I don’t  care to be around others. I love being left alone and doing things on my own. I don’t care for others or their well-being. I don’t do relationships because I don’t see the point of them. I definitely don’t want kids because I find kids annoying as fuck and waste of money.

I’ve deleted my social media accounts because I wanted to stop caring about other people and their lives and just focus on mine and mine only. I don’t care about some relative of yours that died. I don’t care about anything relating to anything about you. I don’t really care about anything that’s relating to me either. I just want to live with what I was born with and if that’s staying up until 6 a.m and getting up at 1-3 p.m then so be it. Because I honestly just don't give a fuck anymore.

I don’t see the point of these rules we live by. I don’t care if you’re doing great, bad, or poorly. It’s all just an emotion that we have to show to you so you’ll know we feel your pain or care for your accomplishments but what is it really telling us? To me, it’s just a cry for attention. So from now on just do your thing and don’t expect anyone to care for anything that you do except maybe your parents and a few people around you.

People always tell me the things you say and do can affect your future and I’m just there like okay and? Your point is? I already know what my future looks like so why do I need other people telling me what I can and can’t say? Last time I checked I didn’t have to keep up a fake image of someone that I’m not. I’m going to be me and me only because that’s all I’ve ever known who to be. I’m not some kind of project you can just build and present to the world and tell the audience this is how you should look and be.

If I wanted to do all of that dumb ass shit I would’ve been a dumb ass Trump supporter. But I’m not a dumb ass person so I'm not going to be doing anything that you tell me do and I’m sure as hell not going to be saying that Trump is the greatest president we’ve ever had because he’s far from it. I see him as a racist and negative person to society. He doesn’t care about women or any kind of Rights. The only thing that orange ass monkey cares about is money and how we can be best friends with a dictator.

There’s so much more I wanna explain on this but I feel like that would be way too long and someone will think that I’ll be going out of my way to put out on how much I despise Trump. But to be honest I couldn’t give two loads of shits on what you have to say to me or think of me. Because last time I checked you don’t pay me so what makes you think I’m gonna give a fuck? Let that shit sink in for a minute.

At the end of the night/day, I’m going to do what the fuck I know is right, what I feel like doing and what I think is best for me. Not you or anyone else other than me. So go take your offended ass on someplace other than where I live. I don’t have the time and place for people who don’t understand me and where I’m coming from and people who are trump supporters and I never will.