Blog Post 91
Is it wrong for me to think of someone who I know I hurt but could never say sorry to? I've been feeling like shit lately for a couple of days now and I usually feel fine and have nothing to worry about. But for some reason a few days ago I had gone back to some old photos from my school days (7th - 12th grade) and I had a photo of someone who I thought I erased from my life and got rid of all photos relating to this person but I guess I fucking missed one.
I stared at the photo for like a half an hour just thinking about what I could have done differently while I was having calls, text, and emails coming in. But at that moment when I was staring at the photo, nothing really seemed to matter to me at the time. It was as if that photo had been the key to something that was missing in my life.
I don't know I just wasn't really sure as to what that photo had meant / why it was still in my room. I even looked through all of the photos before I had put them back in there place and I never saw it so I either skipped over it or I just didn't see it.
Anyways I'm not going to show the photo or anything because...
1. I don't have consent
2. It's very personal
So I mean maybe this person that's in this photo I have will reach out to me one day but until then I'm just gonna have to leave it where I found it and forget about it or just burn it. I don't know.
I just feel as if I need to do something with this photo besides have it sit in my room.
I stared at the photo for like a half an hour just thinking about what I could have done differently while I was having calls, text, and emails coming in. But at that moment when I was staring at the photo, nothing really seemed to matter to me at the time. It was as if that photo had been the key to something that was missing in my life.
I don't know I just wasn't really sure as to what that photo had meant / why it was still in my room. I even looked through all of the photos before I had put them back in there place and I never saw it so I either skipped over it or I just didn't see it.
Anyways I'm not going to show the photo or anything because...
1. I don't have consent
2. It's very personal
So I mean maybe this person that's in this photo I have will reach out to me one day but until then I'm just gonna have to leave it where I found it and forget about it or just burn it. I don't know.
I just feel as if I need to do something with this photo besides have it sit in my room.