Blog Post 108

In My Feelings

Not sure where this is going to be going but just know I'm going through something I don't wanna go through.

We fight and argue night and day. But yet we love each other at the end? Now that's the shit I'm not quite comprehending. I understand we both get lonely here and there so we run back to one another. But I don't wanna keep having to run back and forth to someone who's just going to use me on and off. I'd rather just tell you what's really going on and be upfront with you but then again I'd hate the thought of losing you.

I understand it gets crazy and draining to be in love with someone you don't want to lose. Believe me, I've been there. But shit we have to make an effort and at least try to work these fucking issues out with one another and stop acting as if they don't exist. We goto party's with our friends who claim we're together when we're not even on speaking terms. So please tell me how that's even a "Healthy Relationship".

It's not even the parties I have problems with it's just the lies and fights that happen at these parties. Okay so what if a dude you don't even fuck with tells you I'm talking with another girl. I came to the party with you right? Okay so why would another bitch be on my mind when I technically only see you in a room full of morons and dickheads? Like you aren't thinking clearly but hey that might be because you believe in everything you hear and see on social media and I can't do anything about that.

So if there's never any trust between us then what the fuck is the point of all of this? You make me so fucking annoyed at times and then you make me not think about anything else but you. It's not normal for us to be in this type of environment even though we have better things to do and know better people that can treat us right and we can do the same to them. So maybe we should just call it quits but then again I don't want to end up doing you wrong even though you put me through hell and back. I just don't think I want to call in Karma for this one. I just want to be as civil as possible with you but knowing you and how you are I don't think that'll ever be possible.

So from me to you,

I'm sorry that shit didn't work out between you and me. But don't lie to me and put the blame on me knowing damn well you're the one who cheated from the start and I was just going along with it until you were ready to explain yourself as to what went down at the party. But since you never did that's why shit turned out the way it did.