Blog Post 109
Honestly IDK
A lot of people keep asking me who I'm thinking about and what's she like or if I just don't care about anyone?
To be honest I don't know. I think about a lot of things all day long and some days I don't do anything but sleep. So who knows. But I can name a few things that I think about so hopefully it makes it easier for you guys to understand my attitude and behavior on certain things.
1. A girl with initials: C.T
2. Why people have to be in my business
3. Why I need an IG Account
4. Why bother with snap
5. Who to trust
6. Did I pay my bills
7. Why can't they just call an uber
8. Do I need to care
9. Can they just die
10. How to commit suicide
But yeah those are my thoughts on a daily basis. Also for those who are wondering why I have those thoughts, I basically go through a lot of shit that's irrelevant and it makes me go into a depression. Plus random thoughts such as those come popping into my head as if I invited them. So that's fun.
I deal with a lot of depression and me being the way that I am makes it really hard for me to talk about everything going on with my personal life considering I don't really make my problems known to the public eye. So I'm basically having to deal with all my personal shit by myself and no I don't do therapist. I've been going to those since I came to the States. So basically I've been seeing a therapist from 2004-2015. I stopped seeing therapist my Sophomore year of high school.
I'm listing my reasons as to why I think about those things below so if you're really wondering and trying to get more info on me then continue reading.
1. The only reason why I think about her the most is because I feel like there was a lot of things left unsaid and the situation wasn't really handled well. But I'm not sure how it was from her point of view because I haven't reached out to her since she said stop messaging me. So yeah.
2. Not sure why people constantly need to be up to date with my doings/life considering I don't do anything. But anyways I'm going to leave that up for discussion to those people cause honestly, I don't know what they see in my life.
3. Why do I have an Instagram account when I'm never on it? I ought to just delete it.
4. Why do I still have a snapchat account? My score is well over 1.5 million so can someone please tell me why I still have an active snap for?
5. Trusting people has never been on my to do list so why start now?
6. Unfortunately, I do have bills to pay. Now if you don't mind stop saying I have nothing to do.
7. Hate people who ask for rides and not expect to contribute for the gas. Like I'm sorry were you born today?
8. I'm really not the type to care about others and their stupid drama
9. I hate people to a point where I ask myself why can't they just die?
10. Like I said I go through a lot in a day so it's no shock to me wanting to commit suicide.
Anyways hope you enjoyed this blog post. Sorry, it was all over the place but I'm mean what did you expect? I sugar coat this shit or something? If so you're on the wrong blog site.