Mak

Running Feels like I lost myself in all of this. It's like I'm running to get to someone who I will never catch up to but can see in the distance. It doesn't make any sense why I can see you but I can never reach you. You're the one I want but can't seem to get to and I keep asking myself why that is and I just get blank responses. I feel like it's deja vu and I'm getting sick and tired of being on repeat and not being able to get anywhere. I just want to catch up to you and just talk but you keep running and I can't seem to catch a break with you. It's got me drained but I can't stop now when you're in my sight of vision. I just wish we had a place to go to but instead it's like we're lost and just going in circles like a prison play yard. You keep running from your past thinking things will get better but in reality, things just keep getting worse because you're not acknowledging those problems and it's just a never...

Where Do I Belong This may sound like a suicide note but it's really not. It's just me thinking about everything that's happened to me this past month. It's weird that I still think about people that I haven't talked to in years and want to make contact with them but I'm holding back on doing it because I'm afraid of my actions from my past are going to be brought back up even though that's not me anymore. So I just ignore them and a move on without really paying attention to them even though I want to. I just feel like it's easier that way even though it's killing me inside. I guess I'm just not the type to reconnect or put myself back into other's lives knowing they might want me in there life. I hate that awkward moment of not knowing if they really care about me and want me back or if they want me back just to break me down for revenge. I guess I've just been through so much hell and back with people that I just no longer...