Mak

Just Seeing Where Your Head Is At  How do you manage to be in someone’s business when the only thing that person is doing is finding ways to disappear without a trace?  Chill the fuck out thinking somebody got something to do with you! If anything that person has never even acknowledged your existence. Some people just don’t see others the way others do! Not everyone comes to the realization that others have a meaning/purpose in their life. Some see others as a distraction or simply don’t see them at all. People need to realize not everyone they meet is going to show them the respect they seek or see anything worth noticing. They’ll just walk past you as if you weren’t there. Getting mad for not being recognized/acknowledge is such a childish move. Just make your point and move the fuck along. If they want to acknowledge and take interest they will but don’t force it upon someone. Otherwise they’ll see you as a insecure little bitch and just look at you in disgust. Not everyth...

Why Do I Even Bother at This Point? People stay telling me to be more happy / smile more and all this other shit I don't care to be. It's frustrating for me to be something I'm not / do something I don't understand. Me not smiling and not showing any kind of emotion or reaction and going about my business makes me happy. I get people who don't know me will never understand why I do the thing I do but damn chill telling me to be happy, because I'm perfectly happy I just have a hard time acknowledging it and showing it. Sorry for not being like every other basic living creature on this planet with emotions and knowing which ones to use on cue. Sorry for not being brought into this world with a mom and dad like every other newborn baby. Sorry for having to be put in an orphanage dealing with emotional and physical abuse while also having to fight and survive until I was either old enough to leave or get adopted. Sorry for being so aggressive due to my upbringing. E...

It's Just Easier This Way It's been a few days since I've done anything relating to social media other than delete/deactivate my accounts due to personal and mental health reasons. I'm not mad or upset about anything or towards anyone. I've just been feeling very drained recently trying to do social media and keep up with everyone I care about with everything that's been going on with work, life and moving out it's been really stressful on me and not knowing what to do just made it worse for me. So I thought by me getting rid of my socials would help me get more time on my hands instead of looking at a phone for 15-18 hours a day. I haven't received any text or calls asking if I'm okay/what happened so I guess it was best for me after all. Considering I was right after all, nobody cares and I'm okay with that. Gives me plenty of time to reflect and think about everyone who was just there but didn't really seem to wanna be there I guess. Maybe...

It's Nothing Personal No offense but I don't care to acknowledge people who don't have my number and don't even talk to me in real life but have the audacity to say they know me or tell their friends that I'm cool with them and we should all hang out. I'm sorry but what? If I don't talk to you / make eye contact with you in public that's a dead giveaway that I don't know you. So could you stfu saying I know you because I don't and if I did you would know I don't appreciate people around me telling my business to those I don't know/talk to on a daily basis.  I don't need my private situations getting mixed in with my public situations for everybody to see and judge me on it because it shouldn't have been in the public eye in the first place. That's why I stay off the grid and off social media and never post stuff on my accounts. But that doesn't mean I don't have people to talk to about certain situations that I go thro...

Just Being Honest Like You Told Me to Be People see me thinking I'm always happy or just basically living life but in reality, I'm always thinking of killing myself due to the stress and anxiety that I'm facing but I never talk about it because I hate looking for help/attention/validation from others. For me there's just something about people asking about my personal life and how I'm feeling that's just annoying to me and I'm not trying to be rude or mean about it but damn can you just back off my case and not ask me about shit that has nothing to do with you! If I wanted to talk about something that involved you I would've confronted you about it. But it had nothing to do with you therefore you have zero reasons to be in my business playing detective. I'm not the type to acknowledge someone's question especially when it comes to me having to explain to them what's bothering me considering the answer is always the same ( No longer see the po...