Blog Post 159

Just Being Honest Like You Told Me to Be

People see me thinking I'm always happy or just basically living life but in reality, I'm always thinking of killing myself due to the stress and anxiety that I'm facing but I never talk about it because I hate looking for help/attention/validation from others.

For me there's just something about people asking about my personal life and how I'm feeling that's just annoying to me and I'm not trying to be rude or mean about it but damn can you just back off my case and not ask me about shit that has nothing to do with you! If I wanted to talk about something that involved you I would've confronted you about it. But it had nothing to do with you therefore you have zero reasons to be in my business playing detective.

I'm not the type to acknowledge someone's question especially when it comes to me having to explain to them what's bothering me considering the answer is always the same ( No longer see the point of living and lowkey just wanna end my shit. Also, I don't care to deal with people and having to be forced into doing shit I have no intentions of doing, Such as being a fake friend or basically doing shit for others who have disrespected me in a way that I no longer find their existence to be relevant) type shit. So yeah unless you trying to get real personal with me don't ask me what's my deal/issue because there's too many to count and go through and I really doubt you have time to sit and listen to all of them.

Before I end this off please stop asking me and I quote "If you're tired of living and no longer wanna exist why don't you just end your shit right now?" Let's see probably because every time I try someone fucking comes up to me and ask hey wtf are you doing and calls 911 and I'm transported to the hospital with phone calls to people who know me and then being sent to rehab facilities. So it's not like I'm being a bitch about it it's just every time I feel like I finally have a day to end my shit it gets ruined by a busy body. So please don't think I haven't tried to end my shit because I have numerous times and they just all end up with me being surrounded by cops. 

Anyways, I'd appreciate it if everybody who sees's me could just look the other and ignore me because I really don't care to talk to you or anyone else as a matter of fact. I just no longer want my time being wasted and people are the number 1 time wasters in life and I just can't be bothered by that right now. So yeah do what you'd like with this info just don't hit my line up asking me if I'm okay because I will block your number and act as if I never met you!