Blog Post 162

Why Do I Even Bother at This Point?

People stay telling me to be more happy / smile more and all this other shit I don't care to be. It's frustrating for me to be something I'm not / do something I don't understand. Me not smiling and not showing any kind of emotion or reaction and going about my business makes me happy. I get people who don't know me will never understand why I do the thing I do but damn chill telling me to be happy, because I'm perfectly happy I just have a hard time acknowledging it and showing it.

Sorry for not being like every other basic living creature on this planet with emotions and knowing which ones to use on cue. Sorry for not being brought into this world with a mom and dad like every other newborn baby. Sorry for having to be put in an orphanage dealing with emotional and physical abuse while also having to fight and survive until I was either old enough to leave or get adopted. Sorry for being so aggressive due to my upbringing. Everyone around me thinks I need to have an excuse for everything I do when I don't. This is why I don't fucks with people because shit is bound to go sideways and I'm not trying to hurt anyone in the process of being with / around them.

Also don't tell me I should do this and that when doing the shit you're telling me to do just makes it 10x harder and worse for me. Just sit the fuck back and mind your business because I promise you the shit I think about doing to others isn't necessary legal. So with that being said It's best if I just stay to myself and do my own thing on my own time because the people who don't know me but think they have me all figured out are the main ones that need to drop dead, and if seem like I'm coming off too hard / being a complete dick I'm sorry but this is just how I feel and I don't like sugar coating what I feel. So you can either accept it or go cry to somebody who gives a fuck

But anyways I'm done trying to educate people on why I do the shit I do and why I never react or tend to over react to certain situations that come up. It's not that I care or don't care it's just somethings aren't worth my time and certain things just need to be acknowledged from a different perspective and others just need to take it's course and be forgotten about.