Mak

Not Holding Back Anymore Since you want to know the truth so bad I’ll give it to you. But don’t come to me telling me I should have told you sooner when I tried. You just only seemed to care about how far you could push me away and forced me to hate you when hating you was the last thing I ever wanted to do. If I'm going to be honest here I'd like to point out that I only hate you for pushing me away. I never hated you for you or whatever you thought it was I hated you for. The way you pushed me out like an outcast really fucked me up considering the feelings I had for you were so new to me I didn’t know what I was supposed to do. But now that I’m much older I understand that feelings are something we can choose to acknowledge or just simply ignore and once I learned how to ignore all the feelings that I had. I made myself move on from you and just decided I didn’t want to feel anything ever again unless it was pain. You put me in such a dark place I thought that not feeling an...

It's Not Real I could go on about how feelings get in the way of my judgment but that’s just an excuse to not feel and besides everyone around me knows feelings aren’t something I choose to have. So why you tripping over me not being able to acknowledge how I feel when it comes to you? Sometimes I just wanna be neutral about everything that goes on and only react when necessary. Somethings just don’t need to be acknowledged other than pain or regret and that’s something I know nothing about.  I have no knowledge of regret. I only do what needs to be done and call it a day. If you felt like my doings were in the wrong then keep it to yourself cause I won’t care considering the damage has already been done. There's nothing you or I can do about the shit I did. We can only move on from it and go about it a different direction if it ever comes up again. Not saying there’s no room for change because there can be I’m just saying I’m not wasting time on something that can be done inst...