Blog Post 170
It Doesn't Matter
Seeing you be happy is all I ever wanted for you. But you went and sacrificed everything you ever knew just to be with someone who treats you wrong and never says he's sorry for any of the wrongs he's done/doing nor does he ever tell you how much you really mean to him and for that I find fucked up.
I'm stuck thinking to myself that you deserve all the shit he's done/doing to you even though deep down inside I know for a fact you don't. So let me just come out and say that you should really let me reach out and just ask if you're okay and if there was anything you wanted or needed to talk about like how it used to be. Considering I never truly left your side so you know I'm always on standby if you ever needed to reach out to me and talk. But knowing me I never want you to feel like I'm pushing you or rushing shit just to get to the point! Even though sometimes it's best to just get straight to it. But with you, it's gotta be a different approach when it comes to certain things.
I just hope the decisions that you made were worth it because by the looks and actions you're showing I can see you're having second thoughts and for that I'm sorry. But please don't act like I didn't give you an option when it came to me staying or going. I let you choose what you wanted from me and you chose for me to go so I did just that and never looked back. It's not worth my time staying somewhere I don't belong or have any room to talk. So it's really your problem, not mine from here on out. So until you come to the realization you fucked up I will never be the same guy you once knew.
Everything between us two is done and over with at this point. We're both too grown to keep going back and forth on this, so please just let me have the space I need and deserve because from the looks of it you got plenty of it recently. I have nothing left to say to you at this point and I doubt I'll have anything to say to you in the future. So if you could, please just live the life you thought was right for you with the guy who you thought was meant for you somewhere else that doesn't involve my existence. I'd highly appreciate it!