Blog Post 173
Gotta Let You Go
People claim I’ve changed and all this other shit claiming I’m not myself and just saying I need to get my shit together and shit like that just pisses me off. I‘m not saying sorry or acknowledging anything I do anymore because I know exactly what I’m doing and if you feel some type of way about it then just remove yourself from the situation (my life). It’s simple logic really. Stop being a control freak and just let me do whatever I feel like. You’re so annoying trying to get a glimpse of my personal life that you’re losing sight of your own life. So when I tell you no or I can’t you wanna catch an attitude and start shit with me knowing damn well I’m just going to ignore you and move on.
Stop suffocating me into always being available for your personal needs. If we didn’t have history like I know we do you’d be on your one way trip to hell. You only call and reach out when you’re in need of drugs or money and I’m not that person you can call up asking for that sort of shit. I hate people who ask for money and I definitely hate people who use drugs and expect me to supply them with money for it. Like I’ll just take the cash and block you if anything.
People can never be trusted like yourself and others who only see the use in people. If you use people then you deserve to be burned alive. But that’s just me and how I feel. If you don’t care or have good intentions towards others then simply don’t bother with them. Go waste time with another toxic motherfucker instead of someone who actually cares. Not saying I necessarily care about people but I care enough to notice when you’re being a user and shady.
Just leave me out of your life because to be honest I really don’t care or have any interest in other peoples lives or doings. I like walking past others as if they’re not there and simply just mind my own business without any distractions. The human race on its own is about as relevant as a grain of salt to me. There’s no need for it to exist and no need for it to be acknowledged. It’s just a bunch dead bodies walking around with a brain and limbs attached to itself. I feel like we don’t have any use for a heart or care in our bodies to give a fuck about anyone anymore. So the less we acknowledge others the better off I feel like we’ll be by the looks of it.
Don’t bother thinking just because you feel sad or angry I’ll feel the same because 90% of the time I’m neutral about everything and everyone and the other 10% I’m just tired of everything and everyone. My feelings don’t really have anything to do with people they just have to deal with what I’m thinking about and how that situation can effect me. My feelings rarely ever have any relevancy towards others around or near me. People come and go so I don’t bother getting attached or bother making small talk.
If it was up to me and not for social media you’d think I was just a made up character and only existed because someone had built me for their own enjoyment and use. I never asked to be here and I surely don’t care enough to be alive so maybe it wouldn’t be so bad after all if I was just killed within the next year or sooner. Whenever he or she has the free time to do so.
Anyways I just gotta say that I’m no longer here to exist or acknowledge my existence. I already know who I am and what I want and no one can change that. If I wanna die then I’ll die. If I wanna ignore people then I’ll ignore people. If I don’t wanna text, call or hang out with you I’m not going to. If I wanna go do things that I wanna do then I’m gonna go do it. I’m tired of having certain people holding me back on just doing simple things. Like go to hell and burn for all I care just don’t mention it to me since I’m the one who sent the invitation.