Blog Post 175
People will never understand my isolation & dissociation phases and I don’t expect them to. There’s times where I feel like a burden to everyone around me and that’s when I tend to cut people out of my life so I don’t end up hurting them and end up making things worse for them. I understand that blocking & cutting people out your life is a sign of loss friendships / love for one another but it’s not the case for me. It’s just I don’t want to say or do something that’s going to jeopardize that bond / relationship we have. So I go and become antisocial and ignore everything and everyone around me until I’m aware that everything is fine. Honestly I still can’t do a relationship with someone I care about because I’m afraid of what it can turn into like marriage and having a kid and I don’t see myself being a dad anytime soon or anytime in general. I’ve gone back and forth with this having a wife and a kid scenario multiple time since I was 17 and it just never seemed like the right...