Mak

I'm Done & Gone How do I put this so you don't end up reaching out or asking about my whereabouts? I guess the simplest way to go about it is to just let you do the math and connect all the dots as one and go from there. I'm tired of trying to get your attention to explain my pain and why things have to be the way that they are. I don't wanna be the one you think about ever again and think things can be different between us two because nothing you say or do will ever have my attention to have me look your way. I told you that I was going to end up walking away and never to be heard from and making sure you no longer see me is the final step to the process of healing and moving on. I wanted to give you the benefit of the doubt but it's clear to me that you're the reason I'm holding back on everything. I don't blame you for anything that's happened or you thinking that you had something to do with the decisions I made when honestly I made these pla...

Please Don't Make Me Choose Look I love you both but don't make me choose because I'll just end up ghosting the both of you until you can figure out what it is you need and want in life. Don't point fingers at me when all I did these past few weeks was just sit back and observe all the shit that went down and ended up explaining it from start to finish in full detail. So if there were red flags being thrown out I'm sorry, because I've never been the one to sugarcoat shit. So if certain things ended up being said that's not my problem. You should've thought about the shit you were planning on doing before doing it. I understand you guys are young and in different positions but if you really loved her then you wouldn't have had multiple girls in your bed and for the girl I've somehow managed to get close to in just a week I'm sorry that you're going through this but like I said when I first met you that the guy you're seeing he's a ...

Everything That Goes Through My Head When It Comes To You! I know this might be really personal and I should just keep it to myself but I just want you to know that you’ll always be my favorite and even though we no longer talk which is killing me because every time I see you I just wanna ask how you are and just listen to you tell me about how things are. I have no reason to keep hiding how I feel when you can literally look at me and tell that I need you even though I keep telling myself I don’t need you or anyone else! I want to go back to talking with you and have things be picture-perfect for us both. I know we tend to fight and disagree with a lot of things but I’m sure down the line we can work things out! I just need more time with you to get it figured out! I don’t want to keep chasing after something irrelevant to my needs or plans. I wanna be able to talk to you about everything and anything that comes my way. I wanna do random shit and just laugh in your arms. I miss the ol...

Meet Me On the Other Side I hope the person I'm talking about in this, sees this! Can I just go ahead and say that I care about this person more than they'll ever know or care to believe! I know I have a hard time showing and communicating how I feel towards them but that's only because when I see them I go numb and don't have anything to say. I let my eyes do all the talking and just let them do all the actual talking so I don't seem needy or annoying. I want them to know I care but I can never tell them because I feel like if I opened up about how I feel towards them that they'll end up distancing themselves from me and I can't go through another healing stage. I want this person to be in my life but not as a friend or anything. I want them to just be the one I talk about and people ask about on a regular basis. I just always want this person to be around me and have me be around them. No bullshit, or drama, just straight vibes, and laughs. I have no need ...

Never to Be Seen Ever Again // My Final Goodbye! I'm sorry in advance for the things that are about to be said and done after this has been published. I think people who have good intentions and bad intentions for me are about to really find out just how much they don't know about me. I just think it's finally time to call it quits and move on from everyone. I wanna do this in the most respectful and nonchalant way as possible though. I don't want any questions being asked and people wondering if I'm dead or alive because honestly, I'm not even sure if I'll be dead or alive after the things that are about to occur in the next 72 hours. Will I be back or will I finally get my wish and let the demons take full control of all the shit that's been ignored and go after all the people who did me wrong? I wish I could tell the outcome of what's to come but I can't because I don't know. The only thing I'm fully aware of is that nobody is supposed...

My Heart Doesn't Belong to You I get it, you like me and we ended up talking and whatnot, but I personally can't allow myself to get attached to anyone such as yourself or anyone in general. I would physically rather get hit by a truck and be burned in hell than ever get attached to someone who has a beating heart. I don't know why but every time I get attached things just simply go to hell and I'm trying my best to have things just be steady and not so fucked up. That's why I took time off from social media and only stuck to my sites because I was already detoxing from someone who was so bad for me but I really wanted things to work knowing, in the end, it could never be and it just took a toll on me. That person made me realize how much of a waste of time and self-respect goes out the window when it comes to loving someone and being there for them and I'm just not ready to be put back into that position especially when it comes to my mental health. I just rath...