Blog Post 203

Please Don't Make Me Choose

Look I love you both but don't make me choose because I'll just end up ghosting the both of you until you can figure out what it is you need and want in life. Don't point fingers at me when all I did these past few weeks was just sit back and observe all the shit that went down and ended up explaining it from start to finish in full detail. So if there were red flags being thrown out I'm sorry, because I've never been the one to sugarcoat shit. So if certain things ended up being said that's not my problem. You should've thought about the shit you were planning on doing before doing it. I understand you guys are young and in different positions but if you really loved her then you wouldn't have had multiple girls in your bed and for the girl I've somehow managed to get close to in just a week I'm sorry that you're going through this but like I said when I first met you that the guy you're seeing he's a player and he only really cares for one thing and one thing only and once he gets it it's over between you two. But you chose to do it anyways and look what's happened. He became cold and distant. Which sucks but that's just the game he plays.

I'm aware that things are over between you two from the screenshots and everything that was said but can we just give it some time and see if things can be different? I really hate seeing those I care about in pain and crying over the phone. Makes me wanna facetime the fuck out of you and ask if you need anything. I don't care if it was 1am or 4am in the morning I need to make sure you're not going to be doing anything reckless over the situation. I've been there and I never want anyone to go through what I went through. I think I was given a chance to make something out of myself and this is my way of doing that. So please just let me be involved in your life and help you figure out the best decisions to take before you end up walking away from something that could be beautiful and regret it in the future. I can't be the one to tell you what you should do or how to do it I can only go off from my knowledge and experience from certain situations that have happened to me and you can either take notes and do what I didn't have the courage to do or make the same mistakes I did and watch the person you love end up walking away to finding something better.

I just feel like good people such as the girl I met a week ago should have never been put in such a shitty situation. If I could've met her sooner maybe things could have been better and she didn't have to rely on such assholes for closure and stability. I saw the way he was treating her and I would have never let half the shit he was doing slide, to be honest. But I just sat back and watched it all go down and kept to myself. It wasn't my business or my problem at the time so I just acted as if I was blinded by it all. But it doesn't mean I wasn't taking notes and making mental visuals of it all going down so I could play it back frame by frame and let her have it without leaving anything out. Because at the end of the day all she wants is the truth and he wasn't providing that, so I ended up stepping in and giving her all the things she wanted to know. I know that might make me look like I'm going against the bro code but to be fair I'll always be on the side that was hurting in the process of it all. I feel like if you aren't hurting then you aren't taking accountability for your actions and don't care to realize the ones who care about you are hurting and you chose to let them drown in the pain you were causing, and that's just something I can't get behind no matter what.

So maybe I did take a side or maybe I was just being honest in a serious situation knowing that things could end. I never want things to end but if that's what they choose to do then I just accept it and move on. I don't ask questions nor do I interfere with their decision. Sooner or later they might regret the choices they made but at the same time, if it was what was needed then maybe then they'll see it was the right decision. So hopefully they won't feel so bad about it. Just move on and do better and live life without ever going back to that situation or person. No matter how much it hurt you just need to let go and move on and if they reach out you just need to be honest with yourself and ask yourself if they're worth the reply and if you say no then just delete the text and move on. Don't second guess it.