Blog Post 214

Lies Turned into Truths

I ended up getting close to you so I could get some ideas on what to write about because I knew how quick and easy it would be to get the post published if I stuck around you. I didn't care for the shit that went on. I only cared about how I could make every situation into a post. I wasn't in it for the vibe or friendship or anything really involving you in general. I just wanted to see how many and how much I was willing to get out of you and turns out I got everything I ever wanted and so much more. I didn't expect to get this many posts published about the shit that's happened this fast. I thought that maybe I could get 3-5 out but nah, I got hella post published from being with you and all I gotta say to that is thank you. I made you out to be the good guy just to have people leave me alone about the subject matters and not cause hatred towards you. I ended up taking all the blame just so you could keep your squeaky clean goodie two-shoe boy image when we both know you're far from that.

I was never obsessed with you like you claimed. I might have just gotten carried away and lost track of my true purpose with you. Which was to just make things right and get out. I never wanted to fuck you or have any sort of sexual encounter with you, I just did that because that's all you ever cared about doing. You're the most disgusting human being I've ever been with and I hope I never have to see your face ever again. I'm still not sure what I ever saw in you when you were the one who made me into something I'm not and I can't get it back. I had to suppress my anger and hatred towards you every time I saw you because I knew if I let it show then there was no going back and I would've just gotten physical even though that's not something I'd ever want to do because I hate the thought of fighting with others.

I'm not holding back on shit anymore when it comes to you, especially the feelings I have for you. The only thing I feel now when it comes to you is rage and trust me there's no room for love anymore. I gave you that and you ended up killing it on sight. So what I'm gonna do now is just let the actual feelings that I have for you play into the light and see how much you can handle because I want to see the terror in your eyes when you look me dead in the eyes knowing there's nothing you can do to stop the rage of hatred that I have towards you from coming out. I want to show you the side that I be holding back so much that when it comes out people steer clear because they know there's nothing they can do to stop it unless I get to let it all out on the person who caused it to be seen in broad daylight in the first place. So maybe something might happen to you maybe not really just depends on the type of weather and how much hatred is built up. But for now, I'm keeping it at boiling temperature just in case my time is tomorrow.

I'm not here to scare you or anything in that area. I'm just here to tell you that I hate you with all my heart and there's nothing you can do you to change my hate towards you. I will continuously hate you til I drain every bit of it out of me but until then I'm keeping quiet and staying hidden. I'm not looking for a way to stop hating you because my mind is set on hating you and once I have my mind set on something good luck changing it. So if I were you I'd keep clear of ever mentioning my name or simply put just knowing who I am. Because you don't know jack shit about me cause I only let you see and know what I wanted you to. You haven't even touched the surface of the real me and you never will. I never trusted you or gave you the respect you needed because I knew how fucked up of a person you really are. So let me get into character and play one-on-one your way and see how quickly you end up crying to your group of girlfriends cause once I start there's no stopping me.