Mak

Been Keeping Low I know I’ve been off everyone’s radar for quite some time now and it’s not because I had a problem or any kind of beef with those around me and those close to me! It’s just I needed time to distance myself and go my own way for a while! I didn’t care to bother reaching out or being seen because I didn’t have anything to say or talk about at the time and I just didn’t feel like being a waste of time for others. So I decided it was best to just keep quiet and stick to the shadows! I didn’t care to respond or acknowledge anyone’s texts or calls because what was I supposed to say exactly? It just didn’t feel right reaching out to anyone! I made the choice and chose to be happy on my own! I didn’t care to stress anyone out with my own personal issues when in reality none of the issues I was having have taken a toll on me since I quit being associated with others! Everything has been smooth sailing since I cut ties with just about everyone!  I might step out here and the...

Ended Up Being Someone Else All jokes aside it wasn't that hard to talk to you. Yeah, I had to watch what was being said and done but overall opening up to you was a lot easier than I expected it to be. I guess it just comes from always feeling like an outcast so I don't tend to open up as much or at all really. Unless it's got some sort of meaning or relevance to what's happening around me that I didn't appreciate or made me feel some type of way. But so far so good. I have zero complaints about us being friends and taking it slow. I just wish we could link up and vibe in person. I get that you have your own life and I have mine and I try my best to not ask questions or get in the way of your doings, but sometimes I just really wanna ask a question about this and that and just talk. But I know that will never happen, at least not right now. I don't think it's safe to ask questions about anything that's going on in your life because I'm not trying to...

Options Overflowing It's crazy to think about the number of people I can hit up to satisfy my needs whenever I need them. So please don't ever think you're the only one I'm fucking with. Yeah, you might be the one I'm with for the moment but after the slightest inconvenience, I'm calling up another and going from there. I don't care to talk about the shit that went wrong. I'd rather just ignore it and go about my day with another one. I don't have to sit back and hear your stupid ass apology. Just pack your shit and leave. You made a mistake and now you're done. Don't bother trying to explain yourself. I've already got my options lined up at the door letting them in so what's the point in you sticking around? You're just gonna end up getting jealous and for what? All because I traded you with someone else? Seems like a cry for help. You can tell to me to fuck myself however many times you want but it won't change the thought o...

Better off as Strangers I never understood how you couldn’t feel anything at all when you left me hurting and didn’t care to ask why! I guess me hiding the pain made it seem like everything was fine between the two of us. But it really wasn’t! I was confused as to why things ended when you were the only one I ever thought about! Nobody else came between the thought of you and the way I let it consume me was my fault. I thought that by making time and clearing out my schedule just for you, you would realize that I’ll always have time for you. But turns out it was such a waste of time! You didn’t care about the things we did or talked about! You just wanted to take and take and I let it happen because I was blinded by the look in your eyes! I guess it’s just the way things go and I ended up falling for it! Silly me thinking things could work between the two of us! What a waste of thought that was! Besides, who am I kidding I should’ve seen it sooner the way you kept denying the smallest ...

Finally Managed to Get My Attention Don't bother denying what happened earlier this morning when I walked in. I didn't mean to cross paths with you but I couldn't help but notice you walking by in front of me looking my way and making eye contact not knowing I'd be thinking of you throughout the day hoping we'd meet again. I didn't care to react or approach you knowing I had no business bothering you but hopefully one day we could get familiar with one another and just vibe. But for now, I'm just gonna go about my business and let you do you. I don't wanna be a bother or make it seem like I'm trying to play games when it comes to you. I genuinely see something in you and want to get to know you for real and not just what you give off when you see me. I want a deeper connection with you but have it where it doesn't feel rushed or forced. I see you often and don't bother saying anything to you because you seem to be busy and just basically doin...

I Can't Deny It Not sure where to begin but I’ll just go ahead and let it be known so that hopefully one day I can get an idea as to what it was I was feeling when it came to you! I get that we’re in different states & different parts of our lives but the way the that I see you it’s more than a friend but also someone I can’t get close to! I care a lot about you but I don’t wanna end up hurting you or myself so I keep it cool and calm when it comes to you! I’m scared that I’ll have to face you and you’re gonna hate me for expressing my true feelings for you even though it’s pretty obvious that I care a lot about you and want the best for you! But I feel like I don’t show you or you think it’s just for show, but it’s really not! It’s just me being cautious and worried about you and how things can go down if it’s not done correctly or timed out right! I somehow managed to fall for you in ways I can’t deny or describe and it’s really put me at a standstill because I know things wi...