Blog Post 246

Finally Managed to Get My Attention

Don't bother denying what happened earlier this morning when I walked in. I didn't mean to cross paths with you but I couldn't help but notice you walking by in front of me looking my way and making eye contact not knowing I'd be thinking of you throughout the day hoping we'd meet again. I didn't care to react or approach you knowing I had no business bothering you but hopefully one day we could get familiar with one another and just vibe.

But for now, I'm just gonna go about my business and let you do you. I don't wanna be a bother or make it seem like I'm trying to play games when it comes to you. I genuinely see something in you and want to get to know you for real and not just what you give off when you see me. I want a deeper connection with you but have it where it doesn't feel rushed or forced.

I see you often and don't bother saying anything to you because you seem to be busy and just basically doing your job but half the time I'm wanting to approach you with some stupid pickup line and see where it goes. I don't know there's just something about you that has my attention and I wish I could figure it out and then have it all make sense to me so I can figure out if what I want with you is worth my time or not. But until then I'll continue to be nonchalant towards the thought of you and hopefully one day I'll give you the time of day to see the real me. 

I have too many walls up so me making my way to you would be quite embarrassing right now, and I'm not trying to make it seem like I don't like you or you're just another person passing by because in my head you're not. I'm already liking the idea of you getting to know me but I'm not sure what the compatibility between us two would be like. I've only seen you at work and nowhere else. We live in the same small town and have never once crossed paths outside of you just working across the street from my workplace. I wish I could find the time to talk to you and make something happen between the two of us but I'm not the type to just rush into shit especially with those who I've never spoken to or have any sort of information on.

Maybe I'll just go ahead and erase you from my thought and pretend like none of this ever happened. It just feels weird having to like someone new again. Feels like middle school first love all over again. Not saying I don't like the feeling that comes when I see you and think of you, I'm just saying me learning from my past and what it's done to me I'd rather just be done with the thought of you and maybe just start off as strangers who ended up being friends and nothing more. I just think it would be easier for the both of us and I know I'm already getting way too ahead of myself but it's just so I don't make a mistake and potentially fuck up any chance of ever talking to you.