Mak

Keeping My Distance Been feeling like I've lost all control when it comes to you, so I ended up keeping low and out the way. I didn't feel like my presence was necessary for you. I was doubting myself thinking I wasn't a good fit for you and your needs so I dipped like a ghost and never looked back. I wish I could have explained myself on why I chose to do the things I did but it just felt like it was a waste of time and if anything I've already wasted enough of your time just by looking at you. So let's just call it for what is and move on.  We can make things last for a night or two but anything after that it just seems like it's being forced and theirs not much else to go on other than the sex, which is fine but it's not what I'm looking for or really care to have. It just feels like we're doing shit to do it only because we have nothing better to do when in reality all I want to do is be at peace with my own self but it keeps backfiring because y...

There's Nothing Left to Feel I had you figured out from the jump just to get abused and enjoy the pain that you had brought with you. I had no say in the shit that went down because at the time I only cared about the pain and didn't bother letting go of what we had even though all the signs were clear to me. It wasn't out of pity or love for the things I did it was just so I could drain all the things I was feeling and begin to feel nothing after you. I wanted to make things work but only for temporary purposes. I saw no use for you other than draining me of everything I had to offer. I had no say or cared to give my opinion on the things that were happening. I wanted to just make you happy and if that meant having you destroy me, then so be it. I did all I could to make it work but I can see that it wasn't enough. I held on to all of the trauma you put me through so I could recap on why you're no good for me just in case a time ever came around when you'd want ...