Blog Post 264

Things are Good & Well Between Us

I feel like there's not much to say at this point because all of my bad thoughts and me having to second guess shit is finally done with when it comes to you which I'm so thankful for. You finally explained it to me in a way where I don't have to worry about this and that when everything I know and need to know has already been proven and answered for me. I'm good with just kicking back and letting shit be between us two how they are and if we ever wanna make it more we always can. I'm down for whatever with you and I'll always be there for you. I'm not planning on self-sabotaging us and the relationship that we have. I want this to work more than you'll ever know. I'm willing to give it my all and open the doors that I've kept shut from the outside world. I want you to know that I'm in it for the long run and I know we planned out a lot of things already but for now let's just focus on what we can do as of now and eventually we can figure out the rest when the time comes.

I don't see myself losing you anytime soon. I know I can get a bit distant and quiet but that's only because I need time to process everything that's going on between the two of us so I don't make a mistake and have everything come crashing down like it almost did a week or so ago. I didn't even know what caused it to go down that path but I'm glad we stopped it from having it get out of hand. I'm so thankful I can talk to you about all the things that make me uncomfortable and you're able to find a way to work on it with me. I'm sorry if I ever make you feel like I'm doing too much or too little it's just I'm not trying to rush into us but I also don't want to lose you. I just feel like you're the one for me and I'm the one for you and nothing's given us a reason to think otherwise. I feel like the chemistry we have is unlike anything I've ever had with anyone I've ever met. It feels so real and unforced that everything just seems to flow. Yeah, we have our minor arguments but overall, there's not much else to us.

I hope things only get better from here because you mentioned a few things that sound kind of too good to be true, but I'll do whatever it takes to make it work for us if that's the path we go and I'm not having doubts about the path we take I just wanna make sure it's still something you're willing to do and work on. I have no issues with the plans and ideas that were mentioned. Believe me when I say that, if I could do all the things you mentioned right now I would. It's just the timing and making sure it all goes well because if we go down the path you're talking about and things end then I'm basically fucked and you're fucked as well and I don't wish anything bad to happen to you. I want to make sure we take our time and just let things be for now but also start figuring out how it would all work. I can't just do something without thinking it all out making sure it's a bulletproof plan so nothing goes wrong for us. 

I wanna say I have nothing to worry about when it comes to us but I just have to be honest with myself that I only worry about you and only you and I know I shouldn't but it's just how I am. I wanna make sure you're okay and doing well and making sure there's nothing bothering you and if there is we need to talk about it so I don't end up making you annoyed or worse. I just wanna do everything I can to make this last. I'm not into the whole keeping secrets or hiding shit from you that's why I say and do all the things I do so there's an understanding of what's going on and why it's being said/discussed. I feel like we have a pretty good deal of trust going around and me not overthinking things makes it a lot easier and better for the both of us to communicate with one another. I don't ever want you to feel like there's someone else when it's just you that I need and want to talk to.

I don't know I'm just finally happy with someone who can love me for me and lets me just be myself even on the days when I can't. I'm good on the whole who's who and what's what when everything I need and want is just a call and text away. I'm not worried about anyone else and I simply couldn't be bothered by anyone else if I'm being honest. It's like this one person who means everything to me just brings out the best in me and has helped me get through some of my darkest moments which no one else has seemed to be able to do. I appreciate everything that this person does and says to me. I don't think I could ever love someone the same way as I do with them. It's just nice and peaceful knowing I'm not having to ask for someone's attention or feel like a bother.