Mak

Maybe I’m Just Too Independent I’ve been feeling lost with all these thoughts I’ve been left with due to the fact that we no longer see one another and granted we talk and everything. But it just feels like something’s off or something is missing and I don’t have the answers as to what it could be but I just wish these thoughts I have would go away. When we were on the phone last night you brought up how we just talk to one another as if we were just friends when we’re more than that but maybe it’s because I’m slowly slipping away from the emotional and happy self to the antisocial and non verbal way. I guess I’m just slowly seeing things for what they are and can’t really grasp the concept of it so I’m feeling lost and lonely just so I wouldn’t be involved in it. I’ve been feeling like everything that needs to be done and should be done is a one man task so I don’t bother asking for help or bother going out my way to make things known to others just because they’ll probably end up say...

What Else is There to Tell? Update 1: So I ended up getting a new job and so far so good. I mean it has only been about 2 1/2 months but it's going pretty good and I have zero complaints/doubts about it for now and in a few weeks my pay increase hits. So I'm really excited about that! I also understand that the cold season is right around the corner so that'll be interesting to see how that goes considering being outside in the cold doesn't seem like the smartest thing to do. But hey if it gets the job done then so be it, I just need to dress for the season I suppose!!  Update 2: I finally figured out how to balance out my work life and relationship so now everything is exactly how it should be and my anxiety has severely calmed the fuck down and my worries are no more for now. I guess I was just getting overly obsessed with the new job and the big checks that I failed to realize what was really meaningful to me and that's being involved with the one who truly cares...