Blog Post 286

Just Chilling in a Room Full of Unwanted Thoughts

Sometimes I feel like there's nothing more I can do when it comes to people and their shitty situations so I sit back and let them do there own thing. I try so hard to do all I can but I find myself draining everything out of me to help them just to see them end up back in the same spot as before and I'm simply tired of it. I don't understand a lot of things in this world and I don't really plan on getting it right all the time but for someone to be in my life thinking I'm just going to hand them all the answers to there needs is insane. I'm still trying to process all the shit going on in my own world so what makes them think I can be any use / of help to them?

I swear I'm not trying to rude or disrespectful but holy fuck can I just chill and not have to deal with other people and there shitty situations for a few days and go about my life? I'm good in life and I have all the things I need so why are there people coming to me asking me for this and that when I'm literally just trying to live my life stress free. I swear it's like people don't get that there problem isn't my problem so there's no need for them to come to me. Sometimes I feel like I'm trapped having to help these people every second they got a problem up there ass and it's got me sick that I'm there to go person for shit. If I didn't have the time or resources that I do I swear to god all these people would never speak to me but they only do it because I have the time and resources to help and it high key sucks.

I wish they would just go to there actual family or a therapist and get that shit sorted out because fuck I look like helping you for hours without any sort of pay? I guess what I'm trying to get at is that people be relying on me for too damn much and I'm bout to just fall off and let them suffer. It's like I haven't had the time or place to just do me and get my life in check and my feelings about things that need to be dealt with but haven't because I'm stuck having to help the needy and it's annoying the fuck out of me because I know for a fact if I ever went to them with my problems they'd shut me out with no hesitation so why the fuck am I here having to play therapist for people who wouldn't do the same for me? Answer me that!! Exactly you can't so I have every right to shut everyone out and let them fend for themselves cause I have zero energy for them from here on out!