Mak

May 21. 1999 So you're probably confused about the title and that's okay because it's meant for only one person, which I hope they see one day, and if not it's okay. I'm just posting this because lately they've been on my mind and I wanted to make it known by making this small post. I guess I just wanted to go ahead and let you know my thoughts which I haven't had you know about in so long due to me moving on and breaking free from the thought of you and letting you live your life and completely erasing myself from your life. I felt as erasing myself from your life you would see that I never meant to hurt you I was just lost and by finding you and going to you it felt like home and I'm sorry I kept going to you. I guess it's kind of hard to let go of someone when you have nobody else. I thought we would last but turns out the only thing that's lasted was the distance between us two and it's my fault for not being there for you on your most im...

When The Truth Comes Out It's pretty fucked up how I can look you up and down and feel all the butterflies in my stomach but when you get to talking they all disappear and I wish I knew why that was. Because you're not a bad person it's just maybe my body is telling me that I'm no good for you. Hence, I shut my feelings down every time you get close to me so I don't fuck things up with you. I get that if you want to get close to me it's your right but at the same time doing that might get you hurt so I gotta keep my distance and watch what I say when it comes to you because at the end of the day, I can tell you're a good one and I'm not trying to make you think you aren't. I can tell there's something special about you but my mind is keeping me from finding out because I don't think I'm ready for you and everything you have to offer.  My heart and mind are willing to give it a go with you but I feel as if I went for it with you I'd ju...