Blog Post 303
The History of Breaking Up
I guess this is the part where I let it all out and move on from what could’ve been! … How could you have been so perfect on the outside but on the inside you hated me from the start but played it off as if we had made a connection just to throw it all away leaving me to wonder what could have caused the distant farewell all of a sudden! We were cool at first but then all of a sudden you’re nowhere to be found which is fine since I know we have our own lives but to play it off as if I could be with you just to screw with my head leaving me to wonder what I did just makes no sense!
I thought we were doing just fine and I wasn’t trying to overstep but maybe I did somewhere and if I did I apologize knowing everything that’s been said and going back to our conversation everything was pretty mutual and understanding of what we wanted! So I don’t understand how you could just go out of your way and drop off the face of the earth knowing how much I wanted us to stay as friends! But I guess being a friend of yours just wasn’t in my favor and I apologize for assuming that being a friend to someone like you could ever happen.
I guess I’ll go back and call it for what it is and leave you be and erase your existence from my life when I just got to know you on a deeper level. But I guess it’s done for now and I just gotta deal with it! You don’t get the right to say you messed up knowing I’m nowhere to be found and if you ever reach out I promise you I’ll be the one you hate! There’s no point in reaching out to say how much of a mistake you / I was because if I’m being honest here the only mistake was giving you the time of day thinking you’d be worth the wait! But damn was I wrong!
You were perfect from the start or was it just how I imagined you without actually reading into the signs being thrown at me at first glance?! The way I wanted to know more about you the more I felt like I found someone but I guess you were just another fill-in til I figured out where to go from here! I’m sorry for saying all the things I did and being so open about myself! I guess I scared you off and I’m seeing firsthand on why I should’ve just kept my mouth shut when it comes to meeting new people especially those I have a liking to! So my fault completely but you still don’t get to say you knew me because there was nothing I said that gives you the full extent of what I’m really like for you to be going around saying you know me/we talked before! Like, get the hell on somewhere!
Plus even if there was a chance of you ever reaching out again I might cave in and see what you’re up to but after that, I’d go and forget about you and carry on bout my life! Cause there’s no point in thinking I’d ever get a chance to talk to you or see your face ever again bc you were the one who blocked me so do yourself a favor and keep me blocked! Cause I was just fine being friends with you til you went and did that stupid shit so go ahead and leave me where you left me and go about your day & life because I have nothing left to give or say to you! I don’t hate you I’m just not the one to play stupid games so if it’s the games you want then go find someone else!
I was just genuinely interested in getting to know you and would have been down to make it official but clearly life had different plans for us and it’s fine! I just don’t want your pity and think you can come back and tell me the reasons as to why you did the things you did when I was just being myself with you but clearly being myself around someone like you should’ve never had happened. I should’ve just stuck to the script and let you figure me out on your own like everybody else! I just didn’t wanna make myself be a villain in your life so I did my best to play nice and what do I get? I get absolutely nothing from it! Everything just went back to normal and one less person to talk to / give my time to! That’s all!!