Blog Post 320

I Need to Know

I know there’s beauty in the silence that you keep. But sometimes I wish there was a way to let you speak your mind without thinking I’ll hate you for it! I can see it in your eyes that you have a deeper meaning in the things you do and say. But yet you shy away from me thinking I’ll be like the rest when that’s far from it!

I just don’t know where to start when it comes to you! I fell for you harder than anyone I’ve ever met and now all I can do is hope and pray you felt the same way when we locked eyes with one another! But I’m far from perfect and I know there are things I need to work on but someone like you who came in on a full moon makes me think this is worth the wait! I wanna get to know you and see what you’re all about if you would just give me the chance! 

You seem to have lived a different life before coming to me and I just wanna know what it was like! Did it make you stronger than you were before or did it break you and now you’re this person who acts so nonchalant when it comes to doing things that it’s got me wondering bout you! Are you the missing piece to my life or will you just be another life lesson?

I’m willing to take a chance on finding out but then again I know I’ll end up coming back to you asking why you did the things you did only to get silenced out! So here I am trying to think if being with you is worth my time and love or will it harm me even more! I keep going around in circles trying to figure all this out only to keep dreaming of you and all the things we could be if we continue on! 

There’s so many demons in the face of love that I gotta keep an eye out for them! Seeing you end up getting hurt will cause me to bleed and I’m not trying to bleed out all my love just now! You seem like the one I’ve waited on all my life so let me take this time to get to know your deepest thoughts and lifelong secrets that you’ve chosen to keep to yourself!

But just know if one day you end up breaking my heart it’s all good cause I know the things we told to one another will remain between the two of us and all those feelings that I had were real so the connection we had established definitely had some meaning behind it, it’s just a shame I couldn’t keep the relationship from sinking no matter how hard I tried and the paths I took to make things right between us two! So I apologize in advance if what we have comes crashing down!

We can try and rebuild what we had to something bigger and better but then again it might no longer serve its purpose as what we had hoped for! So maybe giving up would be the best outcome overall if things do end up crashing down! But fingers crossed I stop myself before it comes to that.