Blog Post 321

You've Got Me Slipping Away

The fact that you’ve been stuck on my mind for the past few days since we last talked all because we chose to go our separate ways is just so unhealthy for my mental state. But at the same time, I don’t mind it! You were the best I ever knew just for you to slip away even though my feelings are still intact for you! But I guess it’s for the best if we just cut our losses and go about our lives as if we never met only to find ourselves crossing paths every now and then with a smile on our faces knowing there’s something more between us two!

But we’re both too scared to find out because I’m the one who chose to respect your doings and you were the one who chose to walk away so I guess we’re even! I wanted to fight for us but I knew it wouldn’t have made much sense to do since we were just getting to know one another but now that I’m looking back I feel like it was a big mistake to let you slip away when you were all I needed at the time!

You got me second-guessing all my doings to the point where my feelings about you won’t seem to fade away. I guess you’re the one that got away and now I can’t get you off my mind which sucks because I really did like you a lot! I just wish I could be next to you once again and see that smile light up a room full of darkness. 

I blame myself for letting you slip away when I was secretly in love with you but only kept it to myself because I knew if I let you know you’d never be the same! So I kept it for myself and just played it safe even though we didn’t play it safe when the lights went out! But I’m glad I had the time that I did it made me realize how caring and kind I can be with the one I find a liking to and somewhat be overly protective even though you never needed it! 

You just made me feel better about myself which I haven’t felt in a while and I know this isn’t part of the plan but I can’t help but only have positive feedback when it comes to you! I mean yeah your room was cold but you got closer and closer to me to the point where the room didn’t feel so cold after all! I appreciated your kindness and gentleness when it came to me! It just hurts knowing we weren’t compatible in a sense of where we are in life!

But like I told you. I’ll never be mad or upset with you! I just hope you find the thing you’re looking for and don’t let anyone fade your smile! You’re one of the good ones and I’m glad I stumbled into you on a random  Sunday afternoon! Maybe we’ll see each other sometime soon and catch up but for now, we just gotta keep moving forward and keep an eye out for the next best thing even though I’m convinced there’s nothing better than you! But that’s just me!