Blog Post 324

You and I Can Never Be...Even Though You're the One Who Set Me Free

I know that there’s no one better who can love me the way that you once did! Even if I was to try to find the love I once had with you it would never feel the same! I’d go back to you every time even on the days I’d have zero interest in. I’d end up losing everything I built with you just to see you live forever even if it means letting go! I know that letting go is such a pain but the love I have for you will always be around! Even in the dark and misty nights, I pray that you’ll still shine bright so I can find you In your darkest times!

I just wanna let you know that this road I chose to take may not lead me back to you! But I’ll cross that bridge, take that flight, and jump the fence just to see your smile every chance I get! The time and distance will never get the best of us even though some days it seems like that’s all it’s doing! I do my best to do my part to love you better every day but I can see it’s just hurting you in the process!

But letting go will just break me down and knowing me I don’t wanna let you go! But if that’s what the gods have decided then I guess I’ll do as they please!! But knowing me that’s not gonna be! Cause I’ll go against the odds just to prove myself to you that you mean everything to me even if I end up losing my state of mind to the point where it’s breaking me bone by bone, step by step!

I just hate the thought of leaving you behind when all I wanna do is be next to you and it scares me that one wrong move, one wrong look and I’m going to be lost without you! I feel better about myself when I’m with you that nobody can ever compare to you even if they were trying!

There’s just something about you that’s got me hooked on you and I don’t wanna find a reason to let go! Because so far my only reason for holding on is simply because you’re the one and only that I can truly be myself around and you don’t bother judging me for the past mistakes I’ve made even though those past mistakes haunt me! So thank you for sticking around and dealing with my unprocessed feelings and the anxiety that I hold within myself. It means a lot to me. But also I hope you know all that anxiety that I have goes right out the window when you’re next to me! That’s why you never see me in the mental state that you once found me in!