Blog Post 328

I Hate Goodbye's

You might not be the one for me right now but I've got something on my mind about you that you should take the time and read about because it might make you realize how I really felt about you even though the time we had was short-lived.

It's not my intention to erase the good or the bad when it came to you and me but at the same, I've gotta go my own way and figure this shit out for myself even though your number is still in my phone hoping that one day when I call you'll pickup and we'll catch up on life and tell each other the things we've been holding back on saying.

But in the meantime, I'll let you know the things I've been thinking about and the things I wish I could say to you right now. I wish I could hold you one last time and cry out all the pain I felt when you left that day. I wish I could take back all the pain and hurt you felt when things didn't go your way. I wish I could lay down next to you and feel your skin on my skin just to look you in the eyes and tell you that I love you one last time. But I can't because that was the past and there's no way I can live in the past when the future is all we have now.

I'll never come to terms with telling you goodbye because there's never anything good about telling the one you love goodbye when it's the last one they'll get from you. Instead, I'll wish you the best and when the time is right we'll meet again. Because for me the goodbyes just seem to last a lifetime and I don't wanna go a lifetime without hearing the sound of your voice. I'll keep a note of all the times I thought of you and if that note ever reaches the max capacity then I'll go out of my way to find you so I can ask for your hand and marry you because a lifelong note of you and all the times I thought of you means more to me than anything.