Blog Post 330

Sort of Glad You're Gone

I feel like I could have just called you about the things I’m bout to say but I don’t wanna stutter my words when I tell you this but I just need you to know how much of a life changer you were when you stepped into my life that one Sunday afternoon! There’s just so much to say but also there’s nothing to say that you don’t already know! I guess what I’m trying to say is you know how I feel about you and what it is I wanted with you but I can see that my feelings had no value when it came to you! So I just stuck to the sidelines and watched you be you! 

I could see your eyes wandering off every time we went somewhere and I just felt so unbothered by it because I lowkey expected it from you! So I let you wonder about that other person and maybe me telling myself that you’re better off being with them wasn’t the best decision but it’s whatever! You clearly seemed to have gotten what you wanted and I got saved from the pain that I would have felt if I had stayed with you! You just seemed too good to be true to really like me and I’m glad I got pushed to the side so I could watch your true colors show! It made me realize that I shouldn’t have ever been so hard on myself to do the right thing with you!

I should’ve just been whatever about this and that with you knowing it would have made me seem uncaring but now that I’m looking back maybe it would have been easier for the both of us! You clearly seemed to think I was too much so if I had tried a lil bit less would it have made it easier on you? Like with everything else that comes your way? You prefer the easy route than to work for something when it comes to you and I can see it now! But I’m not gonna get into all the details about what was easy and what was hard when you and I both know what I mean! So let’s just cut to the chase and get a move on!

You were only looking for a good time but yet you went and told me lies about this and that just to make it seem like you were picture perfect but if I were you I would hate myself for doing the things you did! You had me at my best just to now only see me at my worst when it comes to you! The only reason why you’re only getting the worst out of me is because you did me dirty and I’m not too happy about the shit you did! Yeah, you were great at the start but then you went and fucked it all up and now you think you can just come back to me and think everything’s alright when I’m wanting to throw you out of my life completely and let you figure it out for yourself as to what went wrong!