Blog Post 333
Am I Wrong? / What the Fuck!
I've never been in this sort of position and I'm not denying the fact I don't like it but if someone were to ask me if I would ever do something like this again... I'd say yeah, even if it meant hurting those closest to me. Cause what the fuck do you mean this and that person are off limits when I'm much older now and it's what I'm into and they have the thing I'm looking for. Like, be so for real. Just because you think they're this and that doesn't mean I can't go out of my way and find out for myself? They were literally the sweetest and I felt safer being around them than I did with you, and that is saying a lot right there. So don't come yelling in my phone about how I should stay away from them when I needed you at one point and you were nowhere to be found. So when I go out of my and reach out to someone else who could offer what I was seeking you wanna get mad? Be so frrr!!!
I literally felt more myself when I was around them and I didn't feel like I was out of place or anything in that sort. They were keeping me company and made sure I wasn't being taken advantage of or any sort of harm came my way. So for you to call them what you did is hella disrespectful. They did more in one night than you ever did while knowing me for the past 20 years. I'm sorry if my point of view in life has changed and my mind chooses to do things differently and I go after people as I see fit. I don't know why me being the way that I am upsets you so damn bad?! Like, get your shit checked before going off on me and my love life. This is exactly why I don't tell you shit.
You think them being older than me is a problem when that was the least of my worries. At least they don't go out and abandon the ones they love and care about. Like how fucking dumb are you! Judging me for who I'm with and doing things with when you were literally gone every week when I needed you the most. Seriously fuck off! I'm surprised I've kept you in my life for this long. You're the one who introduced me to them in the first place and now all of a sudden I'm the bad guy for waiting and catching up with them and proceeding to go out and having the time of my life with them and their friends?
Do you only care to see me at my lowest or some shit? Because I swear that's what it sounded like when we were on the phone! Maybe it's just me being overly protective of them but damn can I also get a say in this? We are fully grown here so let's be adults and get this sorted out because I'm not finna keep going back and forth on you with who I'm with and what I do. It's bad enough I gotta tell you about my day at work when you don't even wanna listen or tell me you have to go mid-conversation. Like ughhh you're so stressful to be around and talk to, and I know it's not right for me to say that about you but damn... Give me a fucking break, will you? I don't tell you how to live your life and what to do or how to dress so why the fuck are you doing it to me for? I literally moved out for a reason and this is the same shit we were dealing with before. Like ugh, stop trying to trap me into something I don't fit into!!! Shit is mad annoying!!