Blog Post 337
No Limits When It Comes to You
You keep wanting to play catch up but what exactly is it that you're trying to catch up to? I can see you from a distance doing your thing but then you trip and fall only to get back up and run the other way from the start and for what? You just need to keep going from where you left off and not look back. Stop making some kind of excuse for this and that when you got it all on lock for what you need to do. You go out of your way to please others but never yourself and I know it's not my place for me to say that but it's pretty obvious that's what you're doing.
If you could just fall back and worry about pleasing yourself only then you'd probably cross that finish line and off to live the better life that you've always hoped for. But instead, you keep running back to the beginning and tripping over the dumbest shit I've ever seen. But like I said it's not my place to say anything. So I'll step to the side and let you figure it out on your own. It's just a shame you can't bash the feelings that you're feeling and spread your wings that I know you have and fly away.
You keep choosing pain over love and it just confuses me as to why! You're a great person to be with and your heart is pure with joy but yet you choose to stand clear of the best when it comes your way. You shy away from the purest of love just to get with someone who brings the worst out of you and I wish I could lead you on the right track but every time I do you just ask me what's the point when it's pretty obvious I just want the best for you and to see that smile light up the world. So when I'm gone I can look down and see you from the gates of heaven knowing my work is done and I succeed in letting you find your happiness.
But I can't do that with you thinking that you're not meant for anyone when If I had it my way I'd make you mine but that's just not how my life is set up right now. It would cause you more harm than good being with a guy like me. I'll take your hand and show you the way but after that, I gotta let you go and let you figure it out on your own. I can't be the only thing that makes you happy. You need to go out and find the things that bring you joy and sometimes sadness to build yourself up from the pain and tears it caused you to feel and shed. You can play the catch-up game all year long but just know while you're doing that I'll be long gone but I'll still go out of my way and check up on you every now and then like I promised!