Blog Post 339

Fuck You in My Lane For, When I Ain't Worried Bout a Damn Thing

You can go ahead and get up out my face and stop checking up on me when your whole existence is dead to me! I don’t need you in my way bringing me down every chance you get! You’re being kind of weird and it’s pissing me off to where I wanna pull up on your house and go completely off! But I know I’m better than that so I’ll chill out and let you come to me! 

Because knowing me when I see you it’s on sight! So if I hit you out the blue and you get dropped to the ground that’s between you and whoever finds you! Cause I promise you the way I’m feeling right now isn’t the best feeling! So go ahead and try that stupid shit with me and I promise you, you won’t ever see me the same ever again! 

You and I are good where we are right now but don’t fucking go out of your way and try to cross that line because shit will escalate and I’ll show you why I isolate myself from people who think they can just treat me any sort of way that I don’t approve of! I stayed cool for this long and out of sight only to find you snooping through my shit and reaching out to my friends knowing how private and confusing my socials can be to some people! So for you to stalk my socials thinking that’s what’s happening is crazy! You’re like 3 days late because I never post shit that’s in real-time or current location! So I can already tell you’re stalking me to your best abilities but it’s never on time!

You can watch over me all you want but just know I’ll never go out of my way to reach out to you and ask you what it is you need because I did that once and you hated me for it! So fuck you for making me think i needed to care about you when you clearly told me to get out of your face with that caring shit! So from here on out you’ll never catch me acting as if I care about you or anything you do! You’ve clearly got that to yourself! I don’t care to be bashing someone who feels the need to go off on someone for just simply caring about their feelings and existence! But I guess I didn’t get the memo that’s no longer allowed when it comes to you! So fuck you! For real!!

I’ll stay to myself and in my lane but if I ever catch you slipping up and end up squeezing your way into my lane when I’m content and at peace with what I have I’ll make sure you never see me in the same zip code as you! So keep your distance and find someone else to talk to and forget about the shit I’m doing and who I’m with and when I’m back in town and etc! Shit was just mad weird I caught you out while I was coming back in town! Like how the fuck did you even end up on that side of town when I never even told anyone about my whereabouts!! That shit still confuses me to this day! But anyways I’m done with you and I hope you stay away from me even though you probably think I have something more to say to you when I simply don’t! 

We can’t be friends and we can’t be lovers but I also won’t go out of my way and say I hate you because I can’t hate someone I loved! So just do me a favor and keep yourself busy and safe with someone else! Not me! I’m clearly no good for you and you thinking you could text/call me out of the blue to explain to me you didn’t mean the things you said and did while I’m still processing the thought of not trying to hate you for saying and doing the things you did in the first place! I just know there’s no takebacks so you trying to take it all back is the worst feeling ever! Cause even if you did go out your way and make it known that you made a mistake through your apology I still wouldn’t bat an eye to taking you back! It’s just not in the books for me and that’s why I’m telling you to just simply move along with your doings and life plans!