Blog Post 344

I Didn't Mean to Waste Your Time!

I get that I will never change my habits when it comes to you so just let me know how you want me to be and I’ll be just that! Just don’t leave me stranded out here on my own just to watch me fall from a distance! Got me calling your phone thinking you’ll pick up but it’s just a dial tone on the other end! So how are you gonna tell me to call you when your phone isn't even on? 

Got me so confused as to what you even meant by that! So now I’m stuck on the corner of your street trying to get a hold of you just to see you with some other guy! Got me thinking it was just a one-time thing but when I go asking bout the guy you were with people tell me he’s not new and you’ve been with him since before my existence in your life! So now that I have this info I can go ahead and leave you to it! Cause I’m not the one to get between someone else’s relationship when you seem happier without me!

So tell me how you planned on telling me your deepest secrets just to go and be with this other guy when you knew I was never going to waste your time and the love you gave! It all makes zero sense for you to go behind my back and tell me one thing and do the exact opposite! I thought you and I had something chill and then you go and do some stupid shit like that?! Fine, do you but don’t come running back to me and blowing up my phone when I’m no longer around and stopped checking up on you! You can go ahead and do all the math on why I stopped doing the things I did cause it’s really not that hard to figure out! 

I feel like I was just another pawn in your little game and turns out I got checkmate in the end because you’re no longer a priority of mine and I can finally say I’m done with you even though I got you thinking bout where I’m at and hoping that I’m safe and well! Only to find out I’m nowhere near that! I’m losing my mind trying to figure out what made you do that behind my back even though you wanted me to be with you in the first place! I guess in reality it was just to make him jealous so when he found out and reached out to you, you didn’t seem to mind it because it was the plan all along!

I guess you expected me to be down and sad about what just happened but I’m really not! I highkey expected this sort of thing from a chick like you! It just never really clicked with me til the aftermath of seeing it all go down! It was such an eye-opening experience for me to watch you do the things you did just to see that you’re no better than the rest of the people I’ve met and come into my life! It’s just a cycle that repeats so I’m kind of glad I didn’t talk too much and express any sort of feelings when it came to you! It was a quick and easy ride to figure you out especially when you made it all too obvious!

You clearly had no idea what I was looking for and it shows! But hey it’s no longer my business anymore. I just hope you get the guy who treats you like you treat others and see how long you last! Because it won’t be longer than a few weeks! You’re too into yourself and that’s cool but damn try thinking of the person you’re interested in and seeing how they feel about the things you’re saying and doing! Stop being so damn self-centered and just show a bit of respect for the other person! The fuck!!