Blog Post 346
I Saw You Twice Just to Never See You Again!
Hey, I’m sorry if I made you sick to your stomach for thinking we could be something more! But I guess your texts and calls meant otherwise! I felt like I knew everything you had to offer from the moment I laid my eyes on you but then you went and left which left me all confused and lost as to what it could have meant! But I guess it’s my fault for letting you walk alone to clear your head and leaving me to cry my heart out that night!
Everything I felt and knew about you seemed to have just been fading right before my eyes and as much as I tried to capture and save every memory and moment it was all too late! It felt like every promise that we had made to one another was simply being broken and lost to where everything around me just started to not make sense anymore! I tried to fight off the feeling of losing you but nothing seemed to work! So I sat back hoping that you’d come back through the door you left! But nothing happened! So I locked the door and threw away the key!
I tried my best to love you with everything I had but I later realized it wasn’t enough and that I'll never be good enough for someone such as yourself! So I stopped and let it fall apart to where you looked at me asking what was wrong and I said nothing! I didn’t know what to say or do at the time other than just get one last look at you knowing what we had was coming to an end and that eventually you’d leave me! Which just so happens to be true! Because my intuition is never wrong! So for you to do all the things you did just for me to find you in the end and see you in a different light hurt like hell! I thought what we had and everything we went through was making us better for one another but instead, you just ended up hating me for it!
It’s just a shame I didn’t know sooner! Had I known that you hated me from the start I would have backed away and let you be with someone better! But you chose to drag me along as if I was just a prop of some sort and no matter how many times I asked if you were okay and if you wanted to talk about anything you just remained silent! It hurt like hell knowing something was going on with you but you never mentioned it to me until it was too late and you were out the door! I feel like nothing happened or went the way we had expected but the way I felt about was always genuine from the start. So for you to hate me from the moment after we hung out just to text me if I can hang out didn't make much sense to me. If you hated me so much why ask me to come over and then fall asleep in my arms and cuddle next to me as if nothing was ever wrong?