Blog Post 352
Left Me to Drown in a Bed Full of Lies
It’s crazy how someone could just leave someone to fend for themselves at such a young age! You knew I wasn’t ready for what you were putting me through but you went and did it anyways! I begged and cried out to you so you would stop but you didn’t seem to care about the pain I was letting out! So you just pushed me in and expected me to make it out alive when in reality I was drowning without making a sound or causing a scene!
I watched you stand over me as I was falling hoping it was all a dream but when I realized it wasn’t it was all too late! I sank to the bottom thinking about all the things I did wrong and ended up hating myself more than I ever had at the time! I tried to make my life worth living but you clearly had other plans for me and my life that seeing me be happy killed you deep inside that you had to go out of your way and try to drown me with all the pain and hatred that your life had caused prior to me meeting you!
So tell me how 15 years later you can just come reaching out to me through some lame ass number expecting me to forgive you for what you put me through? You should be dead and done with life! Why the fuck are you even around for? You didn’t even have the right to do the shit you did let alone be around me at the time! So you thinking the shit you put me through would just fade away is crazy!
I grew up having nightmares and sleep paralysis! I hated every inch of my body to where I stopped eating causing me to be the size I am today! You ruined my whole life and you think you can just come back and act as if everything is great is fucking sickening!! Like what the actual fucking hell!!!
Oh and let’s not forget you were older than me at the time so you should have known better than to lean on me the way that you did! Have you ever heard of keeping your hands to yourself? No?! Well, you’re about to fucking find out why you should! Cause who the fuck do you think you’re coming at again? Cause it sure ain’t the 12-year-old boy you found that random summer afternoon!! Ugh, this shit is starting to piss my the fuck off to where I’m back to crying and feeling like it’s all my fault!! Ugh just fucking go to hell and burn you worthless piece of shit!!!