Blog Post 354

Angel in Disguise

I could see it in your eyes that the things you were telling me had a deeper meaning than you were leading on with. So either you’ve been through this all before or you’ve been hurt by someone else who never saw the beauty in you! So you come across a path that led to me only to realize there’s no beauty when it comes to dealing with me! There’s only pain and death when dealing with me! So for you come my way thinking you’ll find what you’re looking for is concerning! I’d ask you if you’re okay but by the looks of your eyes and the beating of your heart I’d say you’re pretty well off for what you got going on!

But it still doesn’t beg the question of why you chose to approach me out of all the people who were next to me! I get I’m very much out of the way and only in the known when I need to be! But for someone like you to just walk up to me and start asking bout my life and doings is a bit too much for me! I feel like it’s a setup only to look you in the eyes and see the pain and tragedy you’ve been through! I did my best to not ask about the scars and the blood falling from your head but at the same time, I couldn’t help but think if I needed to call someone to come and get you! It made me wonder about your previous life and what you were up to! I tried to google you but no results were found so I was very hesitant to continue on with the thought of you! I felt as if your existence was a message from the gods above only to realize you weren’t wearing white! 

So I’m stuck trying to figure out who and why they sent you! I had no clue as to what this meant or what it could mean for me in the future! I tried to start from the beginning only to realize the beginning was the end of everything I knew! So I’m stuck trying to figure all this shit out for myself not knowing who or why you got sent! It’s got me thinking that maybe this is the angel that’s supposed to take me to the gates of hell! It was a thought that came to my head but I didn’t bother asking you about it because if it was true then I’ve already lost and I knew what this all meant! I served my purpose and nobody needed me to be around anymore! There was no sight of love or hate in your eyes so I knew this was serious! You had very clear motives for what you wanted from me but to think it’s time for all this right now is kind of crazy but at the same time it felt right! I’ve always wondered what it would be like and how my last days on earth would go about! I guess this is how it goes and feels!

Every time we’re face to face I could see it in your eyes that this is how it was meant to be all along! I just didn’t imagine it being you out of all the people who would bring me to the gates of hell! I thought It would be the devil himself! But now that I’m looking at you face to face I can see why he chose to send you! You were everything I wanted but I could never have due to the different paths we chose in life and I can see that it was always meant to be like this! They always did say… you’ll end up walking the lonely path but in the end, you’ll find the one who got away and I’m seeing that clear as day now! Just wish I had known it sooner! I wouldn’t have gone and questioned my doings when it came to you!