Mak

I Feel Like Backing Down This might sound stupid but me fighting with you is never going to happen so if it's the fights and arguing that you want then please go be with someone else. I'm literally just trying my best to care for you and love you as you deserve but if you're wanting to go back and forth on this and that and accuse me of this and the third then honestly I have no point in doing this. It's easier for me to just walk away from it all and go find something better only to have thoughts about you and how we could have made it work if only I had just stayed. But if I had stayed then the fighting would have just continued and I'm so sick of the fighting. It's gotten to the point where I'm just not going back and forth with others and just simply agreeing with them even though they're in the wrong but I'm physically and mentally drained from trying to correct other people that I just don't care anymore. You could go out and blast my name ...

Wishing We Could Pick Up Where We Left Off I'm not trying to make this long or whatever. But something made me think back to the day I had you, and the next thing I know you're packing up your things and walking out the door never to be heard or seen from ever again. I know it was because of me and as much as I tried to get you to tell me if it was because of me you kept denying it and it hurt like hell that you chose to lie to me instead of just admitting it and I don't think I could ever forgive you for doing that.  I wish you could have told me you found someone else to take the place of me and all the mistakes I made were done and over with before I tried reaching out to on you your socials only to find out you moved on with some other guy and I just had to sit back and accept it for what it was. So I logged out and waited a few days to process the facts only to reach out through text and go right into the whole thing of you moving on and not telling me. But coming back...

I Still Cry When It Comes to You Not sure how to go about this one but when it comes to you just know I still remember everything that happened between the two of us starting from the day I walked into your classroom looking for you hoping you would give me a chance to be yours back in 2013 of May two weeks before your birthday to being someone you knew nothing about!!! I understand my mistakes at the time made you hate me so much but yet we kept on pushing and pushing only to burn it all down to ash because the thought of us being together never made sense once summer ended! I was off traveling and you were focused on your studies and seasonal sports! I ended up turning off the lights and going ghost to protect myself from the feelings that were haunting me! I kept so many memories of us hidden in my room that one day I just became numb looking back on them so I threw them all away like how I did with the love I gave to you! I was so unsure of myself and the thoughts I was having that...

Should I Continue or Just Give Up on the Thought of You?! I know I have zero reasons to put the blame on myself but shit just got all weird overnight and I’m trying to figure out what caused it all because we no longer talk or reach out to one another anymore! I know things are crazy with my schedule and everything else going on with me behind the scenes but I just don’t understand how we went from texting and seeing each other every day to ghosting one another out of the blue!! I keep asking myself if I was too needy with you or if I was being too nonchalant with you to give you an impression of me not wanting to bother with you and if that’s the case I’m sorry! I wasn’t trying to make myself seem like you were a bother to me! I just get focused on certain things and don’t care to think or make time for anything else until the thing I’m fixated on is done! It’s a bad habit of mine I know!!  It’s just crazy knowing how you feel about me and the way you think about me without you kn...

Seeing You For the First Time... Made Me Feel Some Type of Way I feel like it’s none of my business when it comes to you but at the same time there’s this feeling I’ve been having lately and it’s towards you and I don’t know how to describe it without coming off as being obsessed with you! If that makes sense! It’s just my feelings end up lying to me most of the time so the things I feel for others isn’t how I truly feel it’s just what my mind feels is right at the time but down the line, it all just becomes a mistake and I have to let it go! So I’m not sure why I’m even bothering with the thought of acknowledging these feelings for you when I know nothing is going to happen between the two of us! You’ve got your thing and I’ve got my thing! Our lives don’t even cross paths and if they ever did then it was just a sign that I made a mistake in not trusting my feelings and saying hey to you when I saw you!  I keep quiet and in the background of your work because I’m not trying to bot...

Wishing I Could Turn My Feeling Off... I’m not even sure why I’m back on here but I guess I’m just trying to figure out the thought of you and what it could mean for me! I’m not trying to make it obvious as to how I feel about you but at the same time, I can’t deny the feelings that I’m having when I look at you! Somehow down the line of meeting you, my feelings started forming and now I don’t know what to do! I’m trying to just focus on my doings but then we cross paths and I catch you staring at me making me think some things up only to find out you’re just watching me hoping I’d come talk to you! Only by coming to terms with you and I will never fully be capable of making the first move due to our current situations in life! Which sucks but honestly I’m down to just being a friend of yours and hopefully have us be more than friends if you’re wanting that! But I’m in no rush and by the looks of things and what I’m hearing you’re okay with me making the first move! I just wish I could...