Blog Post 381

Seeing You For the First Time... Made Me Feel Some Type of Way

I feel like it’s none of my business when it comes to you but at the same time there’s this feeling I’ve been having lately and it’s towards you and I don’t know how to describe it without coming off as being obsessed with you! If that makes sense! It’s just my feelings end up lying to me most of the time so the things I feel for others isn’t how I truly feel it’s just what my mind feels is right at the time but down the line, it all just becomes a mistake and I have to let it go! So I’m not sure why I’m even bothering with the thought of acknowledging these feelings for you when I know nothing is going to happen between the two of us! You’ve got your thing and I’ve got my thing! Our lives don’t even cross paths and if they ever did then it was just a sign that I made a mistake in not trusting my feelings and saying hey to you when I saw you! 

I keep quiet and in the background of your work because I’m not trying to bother you or seem like I need your attention when you’ve already somehow got mine and I’m not scared to admit that! It’s just crazy how I saw you that Thursday and somehow realized I might actually like you or maybe it’s just the thought of you that I like and the idea of you & I being together?! Either way, my mind thinks you’d be a good match for me but it’s probably me just creating a distraction from all the stress I’ve been having and you being a distraction to my personal doing just seems wrong and I’m not trying to make things work if it’s just going to be a temporary thing! I’d rather just get it right the first time and hopefully, it will last more than a week! That’s all!

I can tell you have some sort of liking to me but I can’t tell what or why that is because I’m just there doing my job and I’m not focused on anything else but that’s all about to change now that you’re there watching my do my job for like 10-15min while I’m there! So it’s fine no worries just wish I could focus on the task at hand but instead, I’m trying to figure you out, and why you’re staring at me when you’ve got customers in front of you waiting to be assisted? I feel like I’m doing something wrong or that you’re just simply judging me or some shit which is fine but if I ask you why you’re staring at me don’t be weird about it! Just tell me the truth and I’ll go about my way!

Honestly, if you like me like I think you do then I don’t see why we can’t just have a normal conversation like I do with the other coworkers! It’s not like I’m trying to get with you at first glance! I’m just trying to figure you out and what your interests are in life so I’ll have something to talk about with you! Instead of me just coming in and saying hi and leaving ya know! Having a normal human interaction with someone like you would be nice instead of making you think I don’t want to talk to you when I do! I don’t want to bother you / waste your time so I’ll continue to do my thing but if you want to talk to me just say something and I’ll be happy to have a conversation with you!