Blog Post 386

I Don't Want You in My Life

There’s no easy way to say this other than what the title has been named! You’re on my case about this and that and it’s making me feel hella insecure about everything I do and I just can’t take it anymore! So I apologize if I’ve been distant and keeping my mouth shut on all of this and whatnot! But I just can’t do this fake shit acting as if you being around me is working for me when it’s not! You’re starting to become a parasite to me and I need you to be dead or simply put … not around me anymore! It’s not like I hate you or anything I’ve just outgrown you and your doings! I’m too embarrassed to tell it to your face but eventually, you’ll understand my reasons for it being how it is from here on out! I just don’t see myself as a good fit for you and your life anymore so I’m just removing myself from it regardless if you like it or not! I just don’t see us having what we once did anymore! 

But I know how you’re going to be and what you’re planning on doing after I leave you for good and honestly, I’m ready for whatever it is you throw my way because that 911 call is going to be the quickest call I ever make this year! So go ahead and do some crazy shit like you’ve always talked about and see how far that shit gets you! It’s like you think I’m here for games and want to be the villain in all of this when I’m simply just trying to break away from you and everything you’ve put me through! I figured my time with you was good while it lasted but I’m starting to not be myself around you and it’s putting me in a state of depression and I’m just not trying to go there anymore! So by all means please just leave me the fuck alone while I heal from all these thoughts and feelings that I have! 

I don’t need to burden you with the guilt and pain I feel & have as of right now I just need you to listen to me this one time and let me breathe and do things on my own and for me. There’s no need for you to apologize to me for not seeing how bad things have gotten with me when it’s not any of your concern so just fade into the background like you did every time something bad came my way! That’s all I’m asking for! Is for you to leave me be and keep me out of your line of sight because the way I’m going to feel after all of this will be worse for you than for me if you ever show your face again! 

So I’d like to take this time to say thanks for everything you made me out to be but you’re no longer worth my time and eventually all your doings will die off and I’ll be happy again! But for now, just let me go and forget we ever happened thanks!