Blog Post 387
Please Stop Reaching Out to Me
Look I understand I let you back into my life for a brief moment to see how things were going and if you’re back on your feet but please don’t start telling me how much you miss me and all this other shit because honestly I’m so far gone from having any sort of feelings towards you! I kind of just see you as someone to talk to when I’ve got nothing better to do! It’s nothing personal I just only care to talk to you because I’m either just getting off work or need something to do while I’m out in public around other people to calm my anxiety! It’s nothing crazy! You’re just there because you make yourself way too available for me now which is crazy. After all, before us breaking up and being together there was none of that. You were a one-sided relationship and I don’t even know why I ever bothered to stay!
I guess my heart was lost in the translation of lust and feeling something real and what we had was never real! You were just a distraction from my previous flings which I kept going back and forth with because I couldn’t help but find more comfort in them than you! I understand that was wrong of me but deep down inside I don’t feel bad about it! You showed your true colors and ways and I reacted accordingly! This led me to go back to what I did best which was ghosting and going nonverbal with you! You had no concept of what I was planning and how I was feeling! All you cared about and knew was having me in pain and feeling like I was less than nothing all for your amusement! So for you to come back to my life ass out with smiles is just disgusting and disrespectful to me and yourself! Like, be so for real!
The amount of damage and trauma you caused can’t be undone! You need to get a reality check and go from there because nothing about you has my interest! The only thing interesting about your name is how well it would look in my block list but other than that you’re just an unsaved number at this point! You reaching out to me out of the blue just feels off and I wish I could ask you why you keep reaching out to me but honestly, if it’s because you have attachment issues then just do yourself a favor and go find something new to fuck and be with I’m not interested in these mind games that you have planned! I’m simply just chilling minding my business and then here you come every so often asking bout me as if I haven’t been doing the same shit since you last reached out which was me just chilling!! Like please leave me the fuck alone if all you’re going to do is ask me the same ass question every time you plan on reaching out!
How bout you put that same amount of energy that you do with me into finding yourself a better job because I’m not trying to listen to your struggles with cash it’s so annoying every call you have with me you wanna complain about your job! Like I’ve told you time after time to find something new but no you don’t listen to me but you will complain like a toddler and act as if I never gave you job suggestions!! So that’s honestly all on you and not on me because I tried to help you even when you didn’t want it or ask for it! So I did my part so grow the fuck up and make some changes to better yourself in life instead of asking about my doings!! How bout you worry about your own well-being and doings rather than what I’m doing especially when I’m 250 miles away from you!!