Blog Post 390

I Don't Need Your Love!

I hate to say this and talk about it all, but I’m just done with the thought of you and everything you once meant to me! I get it I was your son at one point but I lost touch with that feeling once you started treating me like an outcast and telling me how I should be when honestly I know who I am and what I want to be and those plans no longer have anything to do with you! So please just fade into the background like you have been for the past few years! 

Stop trying to come into my life out of the blue as if I owe you something when I tried being the best I could be for you but you just treated me like I didn’t belong so I found a way to shut you out completely and now that we’re no longer talking you’re blowing up my phone and asking bout my doings and where I’m at knowing you’re never going to hear back from me unless I feel like it! Like I’ve told you time after time I have nothing left to say to you so just leave me be and maybe go adopt another son to abuse and use for your own doings! Because the one you had is no longer around!

I get that I’m coming off sideways and rude but I’m tired of trying to play nice and keeping things civil when all I think about is the pain you made me feel! At first, things were great and I actually felt safe around you but then you went and showed me that being safe around you was never going to be the same! I became very uncomfortable and started questioning every move you made because I was losing my trust in you when you were supposed to be the one person I could trust but you went and ruined that bond and now there’s no point in getting attached or feel the need to care about you and the things you do!

I showed you the distant side of me so you’d understand the things you were doing were the cause of me being the way that I was but you wanna have the nerve to go out of your way and ask me why I am the way I am when the answer is right in front of me! Like how dumb can you be?! You caused all this and now you’re wanting to figure out how to stop it? There’s no stopping it because the damage has already been done! I’m stuck like this all thanks to you! So do me a favor and unclaim me as your son because I’ll never look at you the same way or consider you my mom ever again! Thank you and have a nice life without me!!