Mak

So I've been getting a lot of questions recently asking will I ever make an effort on making things right with a girl named Camryn? Me personally and mentally I would have to say no. For me to say a thing or two about her or to even speak of her is really hard for me to an extent where I can't really focus on anything. So I don't really think now or anytime soon will be a really relevant time to see or talk to her in person. So I'm probably not even going to bother with me making any contact with her or anything relating to her.  I'm just going to do what I've been doing since freshman year of high school and letting shit go and letting people live their life without me in it. It's not that Camryn is a distraction, unlike some people who think she's the main reason as to why I went into rehab but that's not true what's so ever neither is it close. I went into rehab for suicidal thought and depressions way before I ever met Camryn. Now you can sto...

Why the hell do people want to know if that African American is my friend or not and if they need to stop hanging out with me just because I don't know what's got people talking and asking me who my friends are at school cause quite frankly I don't really know. It's freaking high school people come in go at that place and what's it matter to you anyway if I have African American friends or Caucasians friends? We're all the same. I'm so tired of everyone judging people based on their color, looks, and just the little things people do. Just leave people the fuck alone and stop trying to make them feel insecure about themselves. I'm getting to the point where I don't have time for judgmental people and I just wanna knock some god damn sense into their small pathetic little brains that they have. Yeah, I'm Asian and that has what to do with anything exactly? Cause last time I checked, I could hang out with whoever I chose to hang out and make new fri...

Why do people need to care so much about what others think of them when they can just go out and do their own thing. We are so worried about what others think of us that we lose sight in reality. Like does it even matter what people think of you? They don't live your life, they don't wear the same shoes you do and they sure as hell don't walk the same path as you. So why the fuck do you guys even care so much about all those irrelevant people around you for? It's so stupid. Just let shit be. Go live your life and enjoy that shit without worrying about what others are thinking of or saying about you. You have to be in one of those moods where you just don't give a fuck about anything or anyone. I'm always in that mood and it feels so fucking amazing. I don't have any kind of stress in my life and I don't have irrelevant people talking to me. The I don't give a fuck attitude can do so much for you that it's priceless. When I'm in that mood I fe...

I honestly don't know what's scarier the fact that we're so concerned about what people think of us or the fact that we let society control us and our beliefs. Every day we're constantly being judged, overlooked, and just being put down over the most obscure shit in the world. Why do people still think it's necessary to put others down and make them feel like they're unwanted in society for? It's not the way to live a life. Stop being such a fucking hypocrite and let people enjoy their lives without you having to be a dick all the time. It's so irrelevant. People should feel comfortable with themselves and not have to feel like an outsider every second of their life. It gets annoying and depressing after a while. Trust me I would know. People would always make me feel so insecure and just hate on me for no given reason. I didn't know what I was doing with myself to make everyone hate me so much until I just said fuck it and did my own shit and I didn...

I hardly ever talk to anyone at my school so I don't understand why I'm hated by so many people for. If you're mad at me because I don't talk to you then that's your problem, not mine. I'm not the type just start a random conversation with people who have negative vibes. So you either change your vibe situation or stay the fuck away from me. There's no in between with me. I can't have people around me with negative vibes because that shit just puts me over the edge. I also don't talk to a lot of people because all they wanna know is about my past and why I am the way am. It's like asking water why is it wet. Like bitch does it matter? My past is my past. I know I've made a whole bunch of mistakes in my lifetime but damn at least I've learned from it so I could make myself a better person. But all you seem to see is someone who's a bad person with a badass attitude whenever you look at me or even hear about me. When the rest of the few...

 I only see myself as an alien sometimes because I don't really have a category to fit in. I'm either too bad for this or too good for that and I'm just so sick of trying to fit into places where I don't belong. So I'm just like fuck being in categories I'm just gonna do my own shit and not even worry about trying to fit into some lame ass category with people who don't even know me or understand me.I'm not the type to be wasting my time when I have other important things in life to than to figure out where I belong and who to be when I know who I am already. I'm just an 18-year-old dude who doesn't really give a fuck about people that are irrelevant to my life and someone who just doesn't take any bullshit from anyone. I just have a bad attitude towards shit that I don't like and I'm sure as hell not going to sugar coat that shit and act as if I like the shit that goes on around me. If I don't like someone or something I stay as ...

For those that try to get to know me at the high school I go to please stop. I don't want to get to know you and I'm sure you don't really care to know me so please stop wasting my time and yours. I need to have my space from people for a reason and I don't really care for people at my high school as a matter of fact. Why don't I care? I don't care for anyone at my high school because it's not like I'm going to see any those people ever again after I graduate in the year 2017. I'll be going off doing my own thing with my own life and you'll be off doing your thing. I don't see any reason to keep in touch with people from my high school because I already have friends that I want to keep in touch with when I graduate and those that go to my school aren't on that list. If you go to the same high school as me and you're reading this then you would know that I like keeping my distance from people unless they go to J.H.Rose. Most of my frie...

Last time I checked it was my life to live and I had to make my own decisions. So why the fuck are people trying to control how I live my life and all this other irrelevant bullshit? Like bitch please stay the fuck in your own mother fucking planet and live in your own god given life. There's no need for your ass to be flying into my world and start fucking shit up and trying to control everything I do. I know exactly what I want and who I want to have around me to enjoy my best moments and my worst moments and having people who can't live in their own world just isn't my cup of tea. So please stay the fuck away from until you get all your ducks in a row and figure out your own life before you start butting in into mine. People who can't seem to live in their own world piss me the fuck off so much I just wanna blow up my own world just so they don't have a reason to come into my life. But I can't do that cause that involves me having to be dead and I'm not t...

 I don't need the feeling of love I just need the feeling of being trusted and respected. Being trusted and respected isn't one of those things you can get in a split second and then destroy it a minute later. It takes years to earn and seconds to break. I have a lot of people's respect and trust but you have to know who to trust and respect. You wouldn't trust or show respect to someone who lies to you and doesn't appreciate you for you. So most people would leave them alone but no not you. Instead, you want to do the exact opposite and show respect and trust toward them and that's how shit starts that you don't want to start. People are so unaware of their actions. We think we can just go out and trust anybody that lives. I don't understand why we do that but I stopped trusting people showing the respect they crave daily. I'm one of those people who will give you a chance but if fuck it up you might as well pack your bags, leave my life, lock the d...

 I'm just going to get straight to the point with this whole issue that I have with Facebook. I hate using Facebook first of all. Second It's so fake. People live off of Facebook and just read status all day and post shit about their friends in a negative way and I just don't get why people need to talk bad about others and what they do. Like who gives a damn about what they do. Live in your own world and let them live in theirs. It's not that hard to do and another thing I don't understand is if you don't like that person out on the streets then why the hell are you even friends with them on Facebook for? It's Facebook which in their rules it says specifically to add only "YOUR FRIENDS AND FAMILY MEMBERS" not people you hate. So why the hell are all of you adding the people you hate on your page for? It just doesn't make sense to me on why people only see Facebook as a place to post all their bullshit and put their friends on blast. Like what...

We don't talk anymore. So go sit down and mind your own business. I'm tired of telling the truth to you when all you seem to think is that I'm lying and being fake. When in reality I'm not. I'm just me being me. I've moved on from so many people who I don't see having a connection with or any kind of chill vibes with. I have zero time for drama so that's why we don't talk anymore. All they did was start some bullshit with me and I just couldn't have all that going on in my life. In my life, it's so simple to just stop caring for others. I feel more happy and free of knowing that I don't need them in my life and I just knowing that I'm totally fine without them feels great. I've learned how to live without people for such a long time that having people around me just feels awkward and makes my life seem complicated. I don't need to be thinking about someone who makes me wanna cry and fall apart making myself feel incomplete. So...