Mak

Ugh, can my days in school get any worse? So I'm in lunch again and some kid wanted to sit where I was sitting and I told his ass several times that my friends were sitting there and he called me a cunt and a bitch and I got really heated at first but I let it slide. A few minutes later my friends come over which happen to be girls. I let them in the booth and sit and we start talking and then this white boy comes at me again and walks the fuck away. I let it slide again cause I didn't find him or the shit he said was important. Now knowing that I'm a senior in high school and fighting someone for calling you a name isn't really worth it. That's why I let it go. Another few minutes go by and his friend Matthew said I was a bitch for not fighting him in the bathroom and this is where shit escalated. First of all: This kid never mentioned anything about me meeting him the bathroom to go fight. Second of all: Who fights in the bathroom? That's so 2008. Be a man and...

Why are people calling me crazy and putting me out of place? I know I'm crazy. It's part of my personality. I'm not hiding it, unlike some people who claim there's nothing wrong with them. I'm not comfortable being something I'm not and I definitely don't like being forced into being something I'm not just to look and be seen as a normal person. I was born differently and if people can't accept that then they can just go on somewhere that doesn't involve looking at me then. It's not that hard to not see or talk to someone. I do it all the time. It mostly involves you just ignoring someone or something and pretending as if they don't exist. Shit that's how I deal with most of you people that call me crazy and put me into some category that "you think I fit in". I'm not sorry that I think differently and do shit that seems to be out of place but it's the only way I feel comfortable in doing things. Not everyone you mee...

I really couldn't care if a girl cheats on me cause I'd probably cheat on her. It's part of society anyway. People tend to cheat on one another and get over it. People act as if they matter to one another when in fact the only thing that matters to them about that person is what they have. It's never about the loyalty or trust it's all about an object that they wanna claim and once people claim it you're dead to them. They don't want anything to do with you. People are worse than animals. We bite off of things that we know we can't chew. We don't care about others we just exist in one planet and do the same shit over and over again. Our own kind hates on us for doing the only thing we know which is survival and trying to fit in. But what's the point of doing any of that when we're just going to be blamed and beaten up for doing just that? If I had the option to either live or be killed I would have chosen to be killed. This world we live in i...

Why do people still need to think it's relevant for them to tell me what to do? Last time I checked I was legally responsible for my own self. So why are people still acting as if I have to listen to them for? This shit telling me how to do everything and when to do it is so stupid. Just let me worry about my own self and my own shit and you can worry about yourself and whatever shit you've got going on. I'm not taking orders from somebody I don't fucking know. Shit for all we know you're going to kill me or kidnap me. You can boss around and act like you're the man of shit to your own workers but I'm not the type to follow every guideline in the book so fuck off telling me when to do shit. That goes for school also. If I'm going to be wasting 8 fucking hours 5 days a week you better know damn well I'm going to be on my phone checking if payments are being made and delivered. So these teachers need to go take a chill pill or go do something that does...

 I don't know why but I honestly can't wait to be on my own next year. I know most kids that just graduated high school don't want to leave their home and their parents but I'm not like a normal teenager as my so what of mother would say. Always putting me down and shit all because my biological mother drank some alcohol. That's all she ever brings up just to upset me and make me want to hate her and I think she likes it when I say cruel things to her. It's her only excuse she has just so she can have some kind of argument with me. I'm so sick and tired of hearing the same shit over and over from someone who doesn't even know me biologically. She's just some person who found me on the internet, flew overseas, went to the adoption agency and picked me up at the orphanage. Yuppie congrats you got a child that you found on the internet and if I'm not mistaken I believe that's illegal so basically, she had no real legal reason on doing what she d...

So I've been getting a lot of questions recently asking will I ever make an effort on making things right with a girl named Camryn? Me personally and mentally I would have to say no. For me to say a thing or two about her or to even speak of her is really hard for me to an extent where I can't really focus on anything. So I don't really think now or anytime soon will be a really relevant time to see or talk to her in person. So I'm probably not even going to bother with me making any contact with her or anything relating to her.  I'm just going to do what I've been doing since freshman year of high school and letting shit go and letting people live their life without me in it. It's not that Camryn is a distraction, unlike some people who think she's the main reason as to why I went into rehab but that's not true what's so ever neither is it close. I went into rehab for suicidal thought and depressions way before I ever met Camryn. Now you can sto...

Why the hell do people want to know if that African American is my friend or not and if they need to stop hanging out with me just because I don't know what's got people talking and asking me who my friends are at school cause quite frankly I don't really know. It's freaking high school people come in go at that place and what's it matter to you anyway if I have African American friends or Caucasians friends? We're all the same. I'm so tired of everyone judging people based on their color, looks, and just the little things people do. Just leave people the fuck alone and stop trying to make them feel insecure about themselves. I'm getting to the point where I don't have time for judgmental people and I just wanna knock some god damn sense into their small pathetic little brains that they have. Yeah, I'm Asian and that has what to do with anything exactly? Cause last time I checked, I could hang out with whoever I chose to hang out and make new fri...

Why do people need to care so much about what others think of them when they can just go out and do their own thing. We are so worried about what others think of us that we lose sight in reality. Like does it even matter what people think of you? They don't live your life, they don't wear the same shoes you do and they sure as hell don't walk the same path as you. So why the fuck do you guys even care so much about all those irrelevant people around you for? It's so stupid. Just let shit be. Go live your life and enjoy that shit without worrying about what others are thinking of or saying about you. You have to be in one of those moods where you just don't give a fuck about anything or anyone. I'm always in that mood and it feels so fucking amazing. I don't have any kind of stress in my life and I don't have irrelevant people talking to me. The I don't give a fuck attitude can do so much for you that it's priceless. When I'm in that mood I fe...

I honestly don't know what's scarier the fact that we're so concerned about what people think of us or the fact that we let society control us and our beliefs. Every day we're constantly being judged, overlooked, and just being put down over the most obscure shit in the world. Why do people still think it's necessary to put others down and make them feel like they're unwanted in society for? It's not the way to live a life. Stop being such a fucking hypocrite and let people enjoy their lives without you having to be a dick all the time. It's so irrelevant. People should feel comfortable with themselves and not have to feel like an outsider every second of their life. It gets annoying and depressing after a while. Trust me I would know. People would always make me feel so insecure and just hate on me for no given reason. I didn't know what I was doing with myself to make everyone hate me so much until I just said fuck it and did my own shit and I didn...

I hardly ever talk to anyone at my school so I don't understand why I'm hated by so many people for. If you're mad at me because I don't talk to you then that's your problem, not mine. I'm not the type just start a random conversation with people who have negative vibes. So you either change your vibe situation or stay the fuck away from me. There's no in between with me. I can't have people around me with negative vibes because that shit just puts me over the edge. I also don't talk to a lot of people because all they wanna know is about my past and why I am the way am. It's like asking water why is it wet. Like bitch does it matter? My past is my past. I know I've made a whole bunch of mistakes in my lifetime but damn at least I've learned from it so I could make myself a better person. But all you seem to see is someone who's a bad person with a badass attitude whenever you look at me or even hear about me. When the rest of the few...

 I only see myself as an alien sometimes because I don't really have a category to fit in. I'm either too bad for this or too good for that and I'm just so sick of trying to fit into places where I don't belong. So I'm just like fuck being in categories I'm just gonna do my own shit and not even worry about trying to fit into some lame ass category with people who don't even know me or understand me.I'm not the type to be wasting my time when I have other important things in life to than to figure out where I belong and who to be when I know who I am already. I'm just an 18-year-old dude who doesn't really give a fuck about people that are irrelevant to my life and someone who just doesn't take any bullshit from anyone. I just have a bad attitude towards shit that I don't like and I'm sure as hell not going to sugar coat that shit and act as if I like the shit that goes on around me. If I don't like someone or something I stay as ...