Mak

It’s currently 1:42 am and the only thing that I wanna do is to just say sorry to this one person I used to go to middle school with because I know the way I treated them was so wrong and stupid of me. I’m still amazed that they didn’t punch me or do something that involved me getting a black or eye or something similar to pain because I should have known better not to do the things I did to them. I wish I could stop all these thoughts that I have towards them and I just wanna apologize for everything that I did to cause them pain. Because I’m sick and tired of living this life knowing I was fucking with the right person at the wrong time and that’s so unfair to them. I should of just let them be them and not said a word to them and I definitely should have wasted my time on getting to know them. I hate getting to know people the way I got to know this person because I always end up hurting them or worse having to fight with them at the most irrelevant times. That’s why I don’t show an...

There was never a fight between us two. People just got their shit mixed up with someone else I had gotten into a fight with. Because me getting into a fight with Justin is so irrelevant. Like I have better things to do than fight him. Don’t get me wrong I’m not saying he’s not important in my life because he is. It’s just that I don’t see the point of fighting him. Fights to me are so irrelevant that it’s almost hard for me to even be involved in one. That’s how much I don’t care for them. Why fight with someone when you can just easily block them out from your life. I guess people just haven’t caught on yet. I’m not saying what I did was right to that person. But come on. That person should have known not to push my limits. Yeah I know punching someone and knocking them out and leaving them to get found beaten up wasn’t right but I’m not about that getting disrespected on the spot by someone who doesn’t even know the first thing about me. What do I look like someone who can’t keep hi...

So sick and tired of hurting those that get too close to me. I can’t help it but it’s just who I am. I found out that I’m just not capable of doing that one on one relationship with someone. I always end up hurting them or have them turn on me and hate me. So if I were you I suggest you keep your distance from me. This is not a threat to those that know me and like getting close to me it’s just a warning sign for you to keep an eye out. I may just end up breaking you and everything you ever felt for me on the spot within a matter of seconds. I know this seems strange and cruel but I honestly don’t know what else to say. People have the audacity to get all up in my head and fuck with my emotions and that’s that shit that makes me wanna unfriend them and get them out of my life. I can’t have someone playing with my emotions and feelings. I’ve been there and dealt with it and it didn’t turn out too well for that other person. I feel as if I should just recreate myself and my interest in l...

How the fuck are you going to ask a friend of mine if they wanna see your dick? Like boy, go sit your ass down someplace before you get rocked off on. He’s lucky I didn't hit him cause if that had been my classroom I would definitely have beaten his ass up. I don’t give a damn if he was joking or anything relating to small talk. You don’t ask my friend that shit. Shit like this makes me wanna fight and another thing. How the fuck you gonna take someone from me when I’m having a conversation about something important? Boy, go get you another life or another friend cause we don’t like you interrupting us. Shit, he’s lucky I didn’t shove his ass into a locker. Tired of these irrelevant people coming in between me and my friend. Damn, go on somewhere already. I already told my friend if someone does that shit again asking you to suck dick or anything relating to that subject let me know so I can shut them up. I’m not playing these kid games with these dumbasses. Shit so unnecessary for...

 I was cool already way before you met me. So please don’t come up talking like I needed you from the start because that has never been the case. I got enough problems with people and you coming into my life and walking out like it's no big deal is a problem. Thinking I’m gonna chase after you like a dog and beg for mercy when you should already know I don’t do that chasing game. Once you walk out of my life you might as well lock the door and lose the key because that door will never be opened up for someone like you ever again. Tired of playing games. That shit ain't what I’m made for. I’m only here to be either your blessing or a lesson. There’s no in between, either you accept me for me or move on to the next. That kind of shit is so simple I bet you a kindergartner would understand. But hey unless you’ve never been around someone like me then you better catch on quick. I will literally have your head turning full circles if I told you all the shit I’ve been through and if ...

Why would I not worry about them? I have to make sure my friends and family stay respected and shine at all times. I’m not about bringing people down to their lowest points and burying them in their misery. I wanna see my people grind as hard as they can and live their lives without any worries. Tired of people having to struggle for what they want in life when they’ve been working on their goal since day one. Shit makes no sense. People out here striving for what they believe in as hard as they can and we got other people who can’t accept or see their goals being reached so they have to bring them down and make them feel bad about themselves in any way possible and those are the people I don’t see myself associating with at all. I guess people nowadays can’t accept others for who they are and what they’re becoming, turning into or turning out to be. Either way, they don’t wanna see you succeed basically and that shit just pisses me off. It’s not their fault for being great at what the...

So today I went off on some kid at my high school for talking shit to me and getting all up in my shit and knowing me I’m not the type to just let shit like that go. I will tell you to leave me alone and mind your own business and if have to tell you again I will, in fact, go off on you. Simple as that. There’s no thinking involved I just go off and starting beat yo ass up. People really need to stop getting involved in other peoples lives and what they’re doing. That’s that shit that will get you in big trouble especially if you're dealing with someone like me. I honestly can’t stand people all up in my business and be asking me how I’m doing and what I’m doing. Do you not see me minding my own damn business in life? Okay, so why can’t you do the same thing? I’m not sorry for going off on the kid. I honestly don’t care what race, height or kind of personal issues you have. If you talk shit to me I will go off on you and not give a fuck if you get hurt. You shouldn’t have been runn...

Basically, I don’t know how much more of this shit I can take. People asking me for favors like I owe them one or three but instead, I owe them zero. Got people hitting up my line as if we associate with each other. Please me associating with you would be the last thing I ever do. So keep in mind that I’ll never fuck with you. The way people be thinking nowadays got them looking like a fool basically and that's that shit I can't relate to anytime soon. Please just leave me alone and not bring up the fact that you know me cause I swear I’ll  look at you like stupid or you got the wrong person. I have no time for games with people who are basic. Basic people are just a waste of time and I don’t think I have any time to waste on people who are basic. I want to meet people who have an actual life and do things that are chill like going snowboarding or cliff jumping or something in that nature. Tired of meeting new people doing the same basic shit that I did last week with someone e...

People just don’t seem to get the fact I don’t want to be fucking with them anymore. They think we’re cool and friends still when in fact I haven’t even said a word about them or even to them in days, weeks, months, or even years. So I’m not sure why they have to act all fake with me acting as if they need me or I need them in my life when I don’t even bother with their existence. I know I don’t make friends easily because I don’t need irrelevant people in my life anymore. I just want people that I fucking trust and respect in my life. If I don’t respect you or trust you I find your ass hella irrelevant. So that’s why I don’t associate with many people and have a small group of people in my circle. I’m just so done with the whole making friends and shit. I’d rather have nobody in my life and just do my own damn thing without people correcting me or telling me no you can't-do that do it this way instead. That’s not me. I’m not the type to take orders from other people and I never wi...

First of all, that person was coming at me and that’s when I realized I needed to leave them be and let them do their own thing for a while and not get involved in any of their life doings or anything relating to them. Second. I may never actually speak to this person ever again which I don’t really have a problem with, but if they start saying false information about me and my friends I will deny it at first but if they keep on doing it I will go off on them without a doubt. Third. This person is kind of irrelevant to me now so I’m not really worried about them nor do I actually give a fuck about them and I sure as hell don’t want anything to do with them. I would rather be talking to a brick wall instead of looking at that person. Last. This person did teach me as to why I should never let anyone in my life as easy as I did with them and I really got to work on my trust with people because I trusted this person way too fucking easily for some reason. I know I’m supposed to keep my gu...

I know most of you have been wondering where the fuck I’ve been at lately and to be honest I just needed some time off from things such as blogging. I know this is supposed to help me in a way but what I was going through some things the past couple of weeks to almost a month didn’t have really any time to blog or think of anything to blog about. But I’m back now and ready to blog about everything that comes to mind. I guess I had something called a writer's block where you can’t focus on things or think of anything to write about so you just don't even bother with it.So that’s exactly what I did. I also have another reason as to why I wasn’t blogging and that's because my fucking laptop got damaged so that was holding me back and I didn't really bother on trying to even fix it. It’s just in my room sitting on the floor. I may throw it away or do something with it. I just know I don’t have to fucking mess with it. Other than that being said I’m starting to not care or e...