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Blog Post 51

People keep texting me about C.T and wondering if I’m ever gonna be friends or have anything to do with her in the future and my only reply to those people is “No Comment”. People don’t understand/realize what I did to her, in my opinion, was stupid, wrong and something that nobody should do to another human being. I was basically harassing her on social media when I was younger and I didn’t even know it at the time until I talked to my therapist about her and they had said I was harassing her on social media and I felt so horrible for the past 3 years of my life. That’s why I never really liked talking about her nor wanted anything to do with her until I forgot about her existence and moved on with my life and was ready to talk about my poor judgments and my mistakes. People think it’s all fun and games or whatever. But to me, it was all serious business and nothing to really joke about. People think that what I did to her was okay because I was younger and didn’t know any better and ...

Blog Post 50

I don’t need people telling me who to be because I already know who I’m supposed to be and that person is me, myself and I. Sorry for the disappointment if I’m not good enough for you and I’m not what “you” want me to be but for me I’m happy with what I’ve become and what I do in “my life”. So you can either accept me for me or kill yourself because there's no need for judgmental ass people like you to be in other people’s lives telling them how to live their own fucking life. People think they’re in this world to control others and their life doing when the only reason that they’re in this world is because their parents had sex and 9 months later they had a baby aka yourself. So chill the fuck out thinking that you were born into this world to control others and telling them how to live their life when you don’t even have any control over yours. Oh shit! My bad, I totally forgot about your past. I don't care, though. Just because you never had any control over your life and yo...

Blog Post 49

Don’t pretend to love someone and then treat them like shit. If you pretend to love someone people are most definitely are going to call you a fake and I don’t think you want that. So love someone and hold on to them and treat them like you’re supposed to or treat them like how you would want to be treated. It’s simple shit but yet we still have people out here who are making it into a big deal when it’s not even something to even be discussed. Last time I checked you had brains and some knowledge on this. So you should know better than to treat someone that you love like shit and as if they were not good enough for you. But hey if you say otherwise then please let me know so we can get you help. People wanna take relationships as it's all one big game nowadays and see who the winner is at the end of it all it seems. I’m not sure about you or whatever but to me, this shit is just fucking mind blowing to me that they would wanna treat something so special between one another as if i...

Blog Post 48

People keep wanting to know if I’ll ever date a girl and quite frankly that’s none of their business if I do or don’t. Right now I’d like to just think that I’m in a pretty good spot from where I was back 4 -5 years ago so yeah me dating anyone isn’t really on my mind or even in my state of mind right now. I wanna go out and have fun with the few friends that I have and just try new things with new people and not let one person get in the way of that. People wanna take life so seriously nowadays and not enjoy life as it’s given to them and instead they always seem to take advantage of the little things or just not care about their life. Unlike me, I just wanna enjoy what little time I do have of being free and wild before I grow up and start caring for my future and money situations. Yeah having fun is fun and all but one of these days we have to focus on ourselves sometimes and what we need to do to better ourselves. It’s time to grow up and do what's finally right and not make a ...

Blog Post 47

Yo if you weren’t fucking with me back in 2016 then please stay your ass somewhere that doesn’t involve being near or around me. I’m sick and tired of all these people trying to get to know me and what I do for a fucking living when I could have sworn they were hating on me and talking shit behind my back like I couldn’t hear them. So yeah. I’m still the same person as I was back in 2016 & since birth so doesn't be thinking anything has changed with me just because it’s a new year and shit. Got people running up to me like we were friends back in 2016 when I could have sworn they were texting their friends on how much they hated me and how they couldn’t stand me or whatever. But now all the sudden they wanna be friends and get close to me? Lol. Bye! I don’t do that fake shit. I left all the fake people that were in my life back in 2016. I didn’t need them. I didn’t care for them I sure as hell didn’t want them to be in my life. But I was nice enough to let them in or whatever b...

Blog Post 46

I wanna say I lived each day as if I was forced to live my life by someone else. But not anymore. I wanna do me and not care about what others have to say. If they don’t like what I end up like or turn out to be that’s their problem, not mine. I’m tired of being forced to do things a certain way when I don’t even wanna pay attention to certain things or people. People need to just leave me to being me and doing my own shit. I don’t care about others and I never have and I certainly never will. I only care about those that I actually see after school and ask me if they wanna hang out with me. Everyone else can just kill themselves. I’m tired of having fake people in my life.  It’s just a waste of my time and I don’t have much time to lose on people who are irrelevant. Shit, I’d rather save my time and be with people that I care for and that care for me. Everyone else can just go on somewhere that doesn’t have me being involved in their lives. We all have different ways of living our...

Blog Post 45

It’s currently 1:42 am and the only thing that I wanna do is to just say sorry to this one person I used to go to middle school with because I know the way I treated them was so wrong and stupid of me. I’m still amazed that they didn’t punch me or do something that involved me getting a black or eye or something similar to pain because I should have known better not to do the things I did to them. I wish I could stop all these thoughts that I have towards them and I just wanna apologize for everything that I did to cause them pain. Because I’m sick and tired of living this life knowing I was fucking with the right person at the wrong time and that’s so unfair to them. I should of just let them be them and not said a word to them and I definitely should have wasted my time on getting to know them. I hate getting to know people the way I got to know this person because I always end up hurting them or worse having to fight with them at the most irrelevant times. That’s why I don’t show an...

Blog Post 44

There was never a fight between us two. People just got their shit mixed up with someone else I had gotten into a fight with. Because me getting into a fight with Justin is so irrelevant. Like I have better things to do than fight him. Don’t get me wrong I’m not saying he’s not important in my life because he is. It’s just that I don’t see the point of fighting him. Fights to me are so irrelevant that it’s almost hard for me to even be involved in one. That’s how much I don’t care for them. Why fight with someone when you can just easily block them out from your life. I guess people just haven’t caught on yet. I’m not saying what I did was right to that person. But come on. That person should have known not to push my limits. Yeah I know punching someone and knocking them out and leaving them to get found beaten up wasn’t right but I’m not about that getting disrespected on the spot by someone who doesn’t even know the first thing about me. What do I look like someone who can’t keep hi...

Blog Post 43

So sick and tired of hurting those that get too close to me. I can’t help it but it’s just who I am. I found out that I’m just not capable of doing that one on one relationship with someone. I always end up hurting them or have them turn on me and hate me. So if I were you I suggest you keep your distance from me. This is not a threat to those that know me and like getting close to me it’s just a warning sign for you to keep an eye out. I may just end up breaking you and everything you ever felt for me on the spot within a matter of seconds. I know this seems strange and cruel but I honestly don’t know what else to say. People have the audacity to get all up in my head and fuck with my emotions and that’s that shit that makes me wanna unfriend them and get them out of my life. I can’t have someone playing with my emotions and feelings. I’ve been there and dealt with it and it didn’t turn out too well for that other person. I feel as if I should just recreate myself and my interest in l...

Blog Post 42

How the fuck are you going to ask a friend of mine if they wanna see your dick? Like boy, go sit your ass down someplace before you get rocked off on. He’s lucky I didn't hit him cause if that had been my classroom I would definitely have beaten his ass up. I don’t give a damn if he was joking or anything relating to small talk. You don’t ask my friend that shit. Shit like this makes me wanna fight and another thing. How the fuck you gonna take someone from me when I’m having a conversation about something important? Boy, go get you another life or another friend cause we don’t like you interrupting us. Shit, he’s lucky I didn’t shove his ass into a locker. Tired of these irrelevant people coming in between me and my friend. Damn, go on somewhere already. I already told my friend if someone does that shit again asking you to suck dick or anything relating to that subject let me know so I can shut them up. I’m not playing these kid games with these dumbasses. Shit so unnecessary for...

Blog Post 41

 I was cool already way before you met me. So please don’t come up talking like I needed you from the start because that has never been the case. I got enough problems with people and you coming into my life and walking out like it's no big deal is a problem. Thinking I’m gonna chase after you like a dog and beg for mercy when you should already know I don’t do that chasing game. Once you walk out of my life you might as well lock the door and lose the key because that door will never be opened up for someone like you ever again. Tired of playing games. That shit ain't what I’m made for. I’m only here to be either your blessing or a lesson. There’s no in between, either you accept me for me or move on to the next. That kind of shit is so simple I bet you a kindergartner would understand. But hey unless you’ve never been around someone like me then you better catch on quick. I will literally have your head turning full circles if I told you all the shit I’ve been through and if ...