Mak

People from my past can fuck off. I have everyone that I need in my life already. For the first time in months, I feel like myself. I was confused on what I was supposed to be and what I need to do but I think I found what I was looking for. It was for me to just stop caring about everything and let shit be and let life just take its course on me. I was doing a lot of thinking when I went ghost. I was thinking about everything that ever fucked me up, everyone that has ever done me dirty and people who were just there as a joke in my life. I had all that shit memorized and figured out and I was letting go of all that dumb shit and everyone that I didn’t see fit to my new life changes. While I was going through all of those things I had people telling me that I was being pretty much anything dealing with over dramatic. Which in my case I didn’t even see it like that. I saw it as an opportunity to help and better myself without letting other people know and just have them find out for the...

Can people stop thinking I live this normal ass life you call living? Because to me I honestly don’t feel like I’m living. I feel depressed every morning and when I go to sleep. I take these dumb ass medications to help me with my attitude and my behavior. I don’t like people. I have a few friends because I hate having to put my trust in others. I barely talk with my family members unless someone tells me to tell them how I’m doing. I don’t  care to be around others. I love being left alone and doing things on my own. I don’t care for others or their well-being. I don’t do relationships because I don’t see the point of them. I definitely don’t want kids because I find kids annoying as fuck and waste of money. I’ve deleted my social media accounts because I wanted to stop caring about other people and their lives and just focus on mine and mine only. I don’t care about some relative of yours that died. I don’t care about anything relating to anything about you. I don’t really care a...

People don’t seem to understand the fact that I’ve basically disowned C.T who was a girl I used to know back in middle school in 2012-2013. I don’t want to deal with her or her friends or anyone that knows of her or hangs out with her because I’m probably going to get questions asking about her and what happened between us two and I really don’t care to bring that shit up because there’s really nothing to bring up. Besides, I don’t have any mutual friends with her on Facebook anyway so what exactly is there between us still? Nothing! Absolutely nothing. I got new friends and luckily none of them know anything about her or her existence. I don’t hate the girl I just don’t really care for her existence and I don’t really care what she’s up to. I’m not her friend, I’m not anyone she knows. I was just a person who happened to go to the same middle school as her and that’s it. So stop thinking that we will be friends in the near future when the only future I see for me is being as far away ...

Well, I’m proud to say that I finally made it through high school and got my diploma! I always had people doubt me for various reasons but hey there’s nothing I could do with those people that always had such a negative input in my life. I only ignored them and let them talk their shit. It didn’t bother me at all it only made them look dumb and dumber from the shit they would ask me and especially when they would start rumors about me!! Oh, what a joy that was to hear!! But nah, In all honesty, high school was okay for the most part. I just really hated the dress code and those who acted as if they knew me or some shit like that. Other than that I made the most of it with people I enjoyed being around and had a few laughs here and there. People said to me that high school was a place to find yourself and all the other things that most people would talk to you about high school and how to fit in. But in all honesty, I never followed in other's footsteps or really cared to listen to ...

This type of post isn’t relating to anyone or anybody I have met. I’m just putting this out there. Why do people think it’s okay to cheat on someone? What’s the point in that shit? Do you want a name tag saying I cheat when it comes to dating or something? Cause if so. That shit can be rearranged real quick. Stop putting effort into a relationship that you don’t give a fuck about and just move on with your life. Stop making other people around you feeling guilty as if it was their fault for not being good enough for you. People who wanna date can date but just stop cheating on one another. That shit causes shit to escalate and then there’s no more trust between you two so you feel like as if everything that they’re saying is either a lie or just something that they came up with to get you off their back. I don’t see the point of those that wanna put effort into someone who has done nothing but lied, cheated, and mentally abused them. Why do people wanna stay with someone like that? Go ...

Yes it’s true I did see a girl named Camryn at the mall and I knew it was her cause I could never really forget about her. She’s just one of those girls that I can’t seem to get out of my head even when I try she just keeps coming back into my head. It was hella awkward for me for sure seeing someone that I used to care for and now know nothing about or keep in touch with. But hey it’s whatever I wasn’t really in the mood to talk to anyone anyways. I’m not going to lie but I did watch her as she walked past me and prayed to God that she didn’t say anything to me because if she had said something to me I would have had lost my cool and told her how I really felt about her at that point and how I felt about her at that point was not a good feeling. So I’m glad she just minded her own business and walked past me. But the fact that I had seen her was really... Um, how do I put this in the nicest way as possible? It was shocking to me I guess? I don’t know but I know for a fact that all the...

I’d rather love you for who you are and not for something that you’re not. I hate the fact that a girl like you would wanna go fake for a guy like me. I’m not going to be judging you on the shit you do. Who I look like? Judge Judy or something? Fuck no. You should realize that not everything you do is gonna affect me the way you want it to. I know I can get kinda upset over little things like when you talk to other guys even though I know you’re just friends with them and the fact that I can’t help stop loving you. You make me wanna be romantic, You make me wanna treat you like a star! So let's keep this shit going until the end of time if we can. I always told myself that I’d have to wait a few more years until I found the right girl and I guess I was right because ever since I saw you I could tell you were the one. I don’t wish to be like these other dudes. Breaking females hearts for a girl who is basically a lower level of what they originally had. Guys that do that shit are st...

I stayed away from all the bullshit for as long as I could. But I guess today was the day I decided I’ve had enough with it. Got this bitch ass of a teacher emailing my mom who doesn’t even have time to care for me and my doings. She emailed my mom about me fucking sleeping in class and not doing the work. First of all yo ass should be lucky enough I’m not disrupting your so called “precious class”. Second of all. Who the fuck does she think she is yelling at me and shit like I’m deaf. I wanna ask her who she yelling at but she gonna reply with smart ass remark such as “I wasn’t yelling. I was just saying” Bitch what? I swear this teacher hates me for no reason. I’m sorry for not being “nice” in a class full of people I don’t care for or like. Sorry that your class is the shit hole of all shit holes and sorry for your class vibe being so dry that it makes me fall asleep. I wish she would just fucking admit that she hates me so I can just get on with my life and have that shit settled. ...

Can people just accept the fact that I forgave and forgot about a lot of motherfuckers that came into my life. I understand that they came into my life for a reason but that reason has had its expiration date for quite some time now. So just leave it be. Don’t be bringing up shit that I have already dealt with. There’s no point of mentioning it or even lurking around it. Got people I’ve never even talked to at school asking me why this person and I got beef for? I just look at them like what the fuck are you talking about? I don’t have an issue with anyone at the moment. Having an issue with someone is so middle school. If people have an issue or problem with me then they need to man up and tell me instead of going around in school and telling others that they’ve got beef with me and those people having to catch me off guard and tell me that a certain person has an issue with me. People need to realize that I’m 19 and I don’t have time in the day to deal with irrelevant motherfuckers. ...

Yo can y'all fuck niggas and fuck bitches get the fuck out my life. Tired of people thinking they can walk all up on me like I'm a floor. I don’t have the time and energy to deal with your fakeness and your bad vibes. The only thing I see you useful for is if I needed someone to fill in a for another person. But I don’t ever have any spots to fill in for anyone so y’all are basically useless to me so why y’all keep hanging out with me for? Like, go home. Suck a dick go do something you wish to do. Stop asking me what to do cause if you ask me I’m just gonna tell you that you’re grown so you need to do you and figure it out on your own. I’m sick and tired of having to baby people around. I’m not a babysitter, so just man up and pull your own weight around. Got people using me for rides into town and expect me not to charge. Like, hold the fuck up. You asked for a ride I tell you the price you say okay I come and pick you up and then you pay once I drop you back off at your place...

So yesterday I believe it was that I was having a bad day cause of personal problems and other shit that was going on with me while I was at school. But yeah that's besides that point right now. So let me just get on with this shit! I’m walking down the hall with all the other people at my school and this kid was like pushing me and it felt like he was dry humping the fuck out of me or something similar to that and I turned around and yelled out “Yo Chill The Fuck Out” and his ass had run to the other side of the hall in a matter of seconds and I didn't really care at the point who he was or what his condition was or what his fucking deal was. All I knew was I was going to throw his ass to the window and just start punching the living shit out of him. But I didn’t I just kept walking to my next class and I could tell the principles and the school resource officers were aware of me yelling in the hall cause nobody else is dumb enough to scream out the “F” word out in the hallway...